Time Goes By [COMPLETED]

chapter 19

Lauren's POV

I got out of the bathroom to see Nic lost in her thoughts. After the drama that went down in her mom's house, we came back here, to my apartment and I invited her to stay. I couldn't let her drive while she's in this state. Clearly what Jonathan has said stung her deeply but I knew Jonathan only said that out of jealousy. He loves his sister and wouldn't hurt her intentionally.

I looked at Nic who is sitting on my bed and staring at my wall with a blank expression. I sat beside her on the bed but she made no movement to acknowledge me. I felt worry invading my insides. I lightly touched her hand that's on her lap and that's when she turned her head towards me. She stared at me for a long minute as if she's studying me. I tried to read her thoughts but she remained with her unreadable face.

I waited patiently even though I was dying to know her thoughts. I noticed slowly her eyes starting to change and growing darker and darker. That's when I knew she was getting angry......but not at me; her eyes looked lost. She's thinking about Jonathan.

She pulled her hand away from my touch in a harshly way and stepped away from me. I frowned but didn't say anything. She moved around my room back and forth, stumping on the ground angrily. I felt dizzy just staring at her so I stood up and stepped in front of her. I held her face in a tight grip between my hands. She frowned but I didn't back away.

"Stop it, this won't do you any good." I paused as her started eyes soften as she's staring into my eyes. I never knew I had this affect on her. She looked down to the floor with her eyebrows slightly connected. "Let's talk about this." I gestured towards my bed and she nodded her head, going back to sit on my bed.

Nic gulped as she sat and placed her head in her hands. I could sense her frustrations, just by looking at her. I felt sympathy towards her but I knew she didn't need that now.

I lifted her face so she would look at me and I felt my heart break just by staring at her; her eyes held pain and misery. I wanted to hug her and comfort her. Take away all of her pain so she wouldn't drown in her sorrow.

"Why does he hate me so much? What have I done wrong to him?" She asked in a small voice and I felt tears welled up in my eyes. She sounded like a little girl who's mother yelled at her for the first time and now she wants to cry.

"He doesn't hate you. Jealousy took over his mind and he doesn't know what he's saying. He loves y-"

"Don't lie to me!!" She yelled at me before I could finish what I'm saying. She stood up and walked away from me, standing at the other side of the room. She was pissed and I knew immediately that her anger is taking control.

"I'm not lying. The reason why we broke up is because he was sad about you." I explained but that only made her rage grow bigger than before.

"So it's my fault you broke up?" She asked, raising her eyebrows at me. Her stare was cold and It surprised me because she never stared at me like that. She was holding herself from screaming and I could see it by the way she is clenching her teeth.

"No, that's bullshit. Your brother is an idiot and he ruined what we had." I started but I still had a lot to say. "Trust me when I tell you, Jonathan has changed from before. He's-"

"Why are you defending him?" She cut me off and that's when her wall crumbled down; whatever anger she has was gone and replaced with tears streaming down her face. "You should be comforting me, not trying to justify his actions." She leaned her back against the wall and started to sob. Slowly, she was slipping to the ground and she sat on the floor with her head buried in her knees.

I feel so stupid. Why the fuck am I protecting him? She's right. Here I am defending Jonathan when I should be on Nic's side. My girlfriend's side. I closed my eyes for a brief moment and then rushed to wrap my arms around her. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I held her tightly in my arms as she is crying her heart out.