Time Goes By [COMPLETED]

chapter 28

Nic's POV

I gulped, wiping my sweaty hands on the mattress while frowning at my mother who had the answer to break my heart or to save it from permanent destruction.

I finally had the courage to ask her about Lauren's whereabouts but I'm not sure if I'm ready to hear the answer, I'm not sure if I'll be able to take it if she was no longer here. No longer alive.

I stared at my mother's lips, waiting for the words to come out and tears were ready to fall from my eyes, but before she could speak, the door slammed open.

My mom turned around, not answering my question or relieving my heart as a figure who looked very identical as her, appeared on the door way. Jonathan.

His eyes caught mine in a split second and I couldn't read his expression, before he looked away and smiled at our mother. Mom smiled back and went to give him a tight hug. Caught up in the embrace, Anger filled me as recalled all the unlikable events he caused for Lauren and I. "What the fuck is he doing here, mom?" I questioned my mom and she turned around, glaring at me in the word 'language' but I didn't care. I didn't want him here, nor did I want to see him either.

"It's okay, mom." Jonathan spoke while holding our mom's arm before letting go and walking towards me. "I know you don't want to see me or have any type of conversation with me but I would like to speak to you." He continued while holding his gaze on mine, hope filling his eyes but all I did was glare back. Just as I was about to flip him off, mom interrupted me and excused herself out.

I sighed in frustration and told Jonathan to sit down while rolling my eyes. He smiled brighter than ever and sat on mom's seat. I looked at the mattress that I'm covered with and avoided his eyes. He noticed but decided to not say anything about it, while leaning back in his seat. He stared at me for a really long time and didn't say a word. "Speak and get it over with." I turned towards him and told him urgently, losing my patience.

"Right." He paused before leaning forward in his seat, ready to say what's in his mind. "Um, I ready don't know where to start." He chuckled and caught my eyes as his were filled with sadness. "I did you wrong. All of the time ever since high school. I'm not in your life and It is mostly my fault. Well actually, it's all my fault and I treated you wrong and I have no excuse for it. I don't even know what happened to you and why the fuck are you in the hospital with a gun wound on your shoulder?!" He asked, frowning at me with desperate eyes, desperate to know.

"Does it matter to you?" I retorted with narrowed eyes and he sighed, angrily and stomped his foot.

"Of course it matters to me! You're my sister and I'm so sorry, I wasn't a brother to you." He closed his eyes and looked down, away from me, obviously from shame. "I'm really sorry." He said, his voice barely above a whisper. I sighed and looked away to the other side of the room. I saw the person sitting on the opposite chair move but remain asleep. That's when I noticed it was my best friend, the one who stood beside me almost my entire life, rita who was sleeping on that chair this whole time. I smiled softly at her peaceful state before, returning my gaze towards my brother. I saw tears falling from his eyes and I sighed for the third time today.

"You know, I forgave so many people in my life. Some who deserved a second chance and some didn't." I paused and looked at my hands. "But for some reason, I see one good thing in them and I just give in. Give in to forgiveness like they've done nothing wrong. Jonathan, you're my brother and you didn't have my back when I needed you the most but you've done a lot of good things to me as little kids." I looked up to catch his teary eyes staring back at me. "So yeah, I forgive you but don't mess this second chance and don't make me regret this."