so
basically in my chapters about my gender and sexuality i said that the boy i like gave me his number in case i ever got scared or lonley, those two go pretty much hand in hand and im pretty much always scared... let me elaborate.
so my fears consist of:
bridges
rollar coasters
bad movies
and the paranormal.
basically, im not afraid of death, mabye a little bit weary of how people will react, but not afraid, i except death. axe murderers and serial killers, dont scare me
at all.
however add that scary bitch from mama and im outta there. as much as i am obbsessed with the paranormal and supernatural, it has caused an unexplainable phobia of it. i will run out of rooms and wont sleep without a light on from thing that arent real, but if i see a very real threat, i wouldnt be scared. i know none of its real, but it scares me.
now the lonliness part... whenever im alone and not talking, i get a feeling that im being watched or ill think sacry things are here.. which dosent go well with my insomnia... tHAT MAKES ME ALONE ALL NIGHT
i think it ties in with the shadows i used to watch when i was a kid and wake up at 3 am and see looking at me.... shit im so fucked in the brain.. it happened every night and now i dint see them...
as for bridges send that to heck, no it could BREAK! im not a good swimmer and its my all time fear bridges and drowning WHICH HAS BASICALLY HAPPENED TO ME MORE TIMES THAN I CAN COUNT ON ONE HAND.
rollar coasters, dont see the point in then, hate them, not scared of them to much, EXEPT FPT THATS A LIE the rides at disney with animatronics scare the shit outta me, HECK THAT TO HECK what if they malfunction and hurt me? and the VOICES EW OML. if u ever ha the pleasure of going on a ride with me, you will se i dont get any thrill from it as well. my face is monotone the whole time as strangers scream around me.
bad movies is a joke ok bye
