Joshler| She Left Me...

IV

Josh woke up, facing away from the window. His arm held Tyler close to his chest. Chest to back. Josh sighed and closed his eyes, throwing his brows slightly.

He gave in to Tyler.

He knew Tyler didn't actually love him, (he wasn't terribly sure, deep down he wanted Tyler to love him) but he loved Tyler and could turn him down. He crawled out of the bed and put on his boxers and some sweat pants, before walking over to the coffee machine. Josh changed the filter, poured in more water, and added more grounds.

After awhile josh poured himself a cup of coffee and drank it black. Soon Tyler woke up. He didnt say anything, he only limped to the bathroom. Once the door closed behind him josh thought aloud;

"Looks like he topped." He sighed right before the shower turned on.

Time skip

Tyler walked out of the bathroom, dressed in only sweat pants, his hair wet. Josh traced the rim of the coffee cup with his pointer finger, waiting for Tyler to say something.

"You fucked with my hips. Shame on you." Tyler crossed his arms, he stood leaning on his left leg in a odd way.

"You wanted it. So I gave it." Josh shrugged, walking over to the coffee machine, to pour him him self a third cup.

"Look, Josh... I was lonely. I needed something." Tyler sighed, watching josh pour the dark liquid into the white coffee mug.

"Oh, so you used me?" Josh said before looking up at Tyler and taking a sip of his coffee. "Its alright. Everybody does." Josh shrugged, setting his cup down.

"No, no no. Its not like that." Tyler furrowed his eyebrows.

"Really? It sure as hell feels like it." Josh snapped, then sat down on the bed.

"Dude, I just dont feel loved. I thought that... Doing that- would fix it?" Tyler covered his face before mumbling: "idiot."

"Thats what you dont understand." Josh layed back on the bed.

"What?"

Josh's eyes grow glazed, tears brimming on the outer corners.

"I love you Tyler." He mumbled it. He wasn't even sure if Tyler heard him.

"Speak up Josh."

Josh sat up, a tear streamed down his cheek. His breath hitched as more tears followed.

"I love you and you don't love me back." A sob escaped Josh's light pink lips. "Nobody will ever love me." Josh wiped at his tears as the sobs grew frequent. He stood up and passed.

Tyler didnt say anything, he just stood their drowning in the feelings that Josh's state brought to him. After what seemed like hours, Josh grunted loudly and slammed his fists down on the table, denting it.

"I'm sorry I'm not Jenna, I was stupid enough to think you'd love me if i gave you what you wanted." Josh made a noise that resembled a low growl before throwing his coffee cup at the wall near Tyler. The dark liquid splattered on Tyler's bare back as he flinched.

Tyler remained silent as Josh stood up from the table, then walked towards him. "J-Josh what're you doi-" Tyler's breath hitched as Josh slammed his hands on the wall on both sides of him. Josh closed his eyes and sighed.

"Do you know long it has been since i slept with someone? Besides last night?" Josh asked, opening his eyes, staring straight into Tyler's. Tyler shook his head.

"I haven't had sex since me and Deb split. Its been years." Tyler's eyes widened.

"Shit..." Tyler looked down and scratched his neck.

"Get some real clothes on, i want real food." Josh said before letting his arms down. Tyler nodded and watched Josh begin to pick up the shattered coffee cup.

Time skip

Josh sat down across from Tyler at the booth and smiled at the waitress.

"What would you like to drink?" She spoke up, smiling widely.

"Just a water please." Tyler looked up at her, she nodded before looking over at Joshua.

"Water as well." She smiled once more.

"I'll be right back with your drinks sirs." She walked off. Tyler looked at Josh.

"Josh, I'm sorry. What i did was rude. I used you." Tyler said, moving his hand so it rested on top of Josh's. Josh looked down at Tyler's hand. The color difference was very noticeable.

Josh shrugged. "Everyone uses me. I'm used to it." Tyler sighed. He lifted Josh's hand and entwined their fingers.

"All he wants from you is sex. He doesn't love you."

Josh closed his eyes as the voice in the back of his head spoke up. Josh pulled his hand away.

"Why would you hold my hand if you only want me for sex. If i'm only your fuck buddy?" Josh looked up at Tyler, tilting his head. Tyler rubs his eyes.

"Why can't you look past that? What if i actually want something more with you?" Tyler puffs.

"Its wrong. This is wrong. You need sometime- its only been a few days since you and Jenna-" Josh held his face in his hands, then ran his fingers through his hair.

"Josh I- When i look at her, i don't feel the same as when i look at you-" Tyler tried to explain, only to be cut off my the waitress.

"Here's your waters! You guys ready to order?" She asked, her liveliness started to feel fake. She wasn't happy, you could see it in her eyes.

"Uh, no not quite yet." Josh said, forcing a smile.

"Alrighty I'll be back when you're ready!" She walked off.

A/n

13 veiws already, pretty good compared to other stories. *shrugs*

Ill update again soon, byeee

-Alex