The Fog

Quicksand

it feels like I jumped straight into quicksand and I'm

slowly giving up on trying to get myself out of this

mess but I still have random bursts of energy and

motivation to pull myself out of the darkness but

lately these impulses haven't been occurring as much

and these desires don't last as long as they use to and I

give up quicker each time and allow myself to sink

further until I'm in danger and scared of drowning

when I get to that point I usually have someone to pull

me up a little bit but sometimes they don't show and i

get scared to reach out to them because I don't want to

burden them with the task of saving me from myself

especially when I'm going to return to this state again

eventually and besides I can't expect them to be there

with rope or a stick all the time so I try to save myself

but sometimes the quicksand is so damn strong and

I get tired of the very thought of trying so I sit there

stuck and so scared of being alone yet afraid to ask

anyone for help but also scared of the day I give up

on trying to save myself and allowing myself to

drown

                         -quicksand