Lost

Chapter 14

~~~Month 8~~~

~July 1st~

"I'm done Shawn I can't do this anymore." I said pushing him away from me.

"Iris! You know I can't help it! It's my job! I have to go back on tour you know it!" He screamed back.

"But your never here anymore Shawn! I don't think I can go on like this. I love you,with all my heart. But right now, this, it isn't working. It was a mistake giving you this." I said pointing to both of us. "I should have ended it when I found out I was pregnant." 

"What are you talking about? Nothing was an accident? The only accident right now, is that fact that we are fighting." He shouted back.

"I just don't want this baby growing up without a father!" I screamed. " You are never! Ever here! Your always on tour, always leaving to go record! What about him Shawn?" I asked.

"Fine, then go find another father for him, if that what you want." He said.

I frowned. No this wasn't supposed to happen. I just wanted to ask him if he could cancel tour during August. I wanted him to be here when the baby was born, but I guess thats not going to happen.

"Fine, then take your stupid ring back." I shouted. I took the ring off and threw it at him, I grabbed my car keys and left. 

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"What happened?" My mom asked as I curled up on her couch with tears streaming down.

"I just- and then- I did- but he said- so then-" I started crying all over again. Everything was to much for me. "I don't want to see him ever again."

"You won't have to baby. We can get a house somewhere in Ottawa." She said. I nodded. "When does he leave?" 

"He leaves tonight." I said.

"Here what if we do this. If he comes looking for you today, forgive him you know it's his job what he does right?" I nodded. "But if he doesn't then, there's nothing waiting for you back with him."

"You're right mom." I hugged her. "Thank you."

"Go take a shower now hun you stink." I smiled and listened to what she said. 

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I lay in bed at 8 at night, Shawn's plane was leaving in a few hours. And he had not come see me yet. 

Maybe he didn't know where I was?

Maybe he thought I went somewhere else?

Maybe..... No I was fooling myself. This is the only place I would come to at this point. 

Man I was stupid. Why did I have to start this stupid fight? I should have just let him go on tour.

"Fuck." I  said out loud as my stomach started hurting. But I was used to the pain. "1 more month." I said.

1 more month. 

"Fuck!" I screamed this time as my stomach started hurting even worst."Mom!" 

"What is it honey?" She said running in. 

"I know i'm supposed to feel a lot of- fuck- pain but this is to much." I said.

"Has your water broke yet?" She asked.

"No ma I still have one more month." I said.

"Were going to the hospital." She said. 

My mom drove us both really fast. It took a while because it was closer the the city, but then we finally made it. I groaned as I felt a lot of pain even more than normally. They made me lay on the bed in the ultra sound room.

"Oh my goodness." The nurse sighed. 

"What?" I said.

"I'm sorry Hun but we have made a mistake." She said.

"What kind of mistake?" I asked.

"Um... gender." I gasped.

"It's going to be a girl." I furrowed my eyebrows.

"How could you make a mistake like that?" I said angry.

"I don't know maybe we mistook her hand as a.... you know." I nodded but I was still mad.

"Whatever." I said. 

Boy was I angry. I pulled out my phone to call Shawn. I unlocked my phone and went to my contacts. And right when I was about to hit 'call' I stopped remembering what had happened. 

He was no longer any of my business. And I was no longer any of his. 

~~~August 13~~~

~Month 9~

Time 10:35 AM

"Shit!" I screamed as I felt myself pee. But I knew it wasn't pee. 

"Mom!" I screeched. "My water broke!" I stood away from the kitchen and entered the living room where Selena was. She had been staying over to help us.

My mom ran out of my room with my bag. It was happening. Oh shit, it was actually happening. 

 The drive to the hospital was full of me screaming for my mom to drive faster and Selena saying it was going to be okay. 

"Mom if you don't hurry up, this baby is going to pop out." I screamed.

"Iris, you are going to be okay." Selena said. "Now just look at me."

I did what she told me.

"Grab my hand." I did. "Take a deep breathe. Now close your eyes and sit back. Whenever you feel pain squeeze my hand."

I did what she said and soon enough, we were in the hospital.

"Alright Miss. Blummer this way please." One of the doctors directed me and my mom and Selena into a labor room. 

"Fuck!" I screamed as I felt the contractions coming. "I- I can't do this." I said as tears came down my cheeks. 

"Yes you can, your stronger than that." Selena said looking me in the eyes.

"I want him to." I gasped. "To be here." I groaned again. 

"Okay Irirs, you are ready for labor just lay back." The doctor said coming in with a whole bunch of nurses. My mom and Selena had nurse clothing on. Selena was going to be the babies God mother. 

"Let's get this baby out." The doctor said. 

'I need you Shawn.'

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"Wow." the doctor said. "Congrats you have a healthy and beautiful baby girl."

I laid my head back, every part of my body hurt. It was all numb. I couldn't even feel my private parts.

"Can I hold her?" I asked the doctor. She nodded, and handed me the small child. "She really is beautiful." 

"Now for the name and the father?" The doctor said handing me a bunch of paperwork.

"Ahh Selena is going to do the writing." I said handing them to her. "Um me and the father are split.... does she still get the last name?" I asked.

"Well, it depends if you want to give her his name." She smiled and walked out of the room. I sat on the bed breastfeeding the child. 

"So what are you going to name her?" Selena asked.

"Scarlet." I said smiling down at the baby. "Scarlet Mendes."

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I feel as if i'm going to end this in like five chapters or less or more?

This chapter sucked tbh