dear diary

July, 31st 2017

dear diary

today was amazing. i didn't except it to be that amazing haha
i went traveling and brought stuff, such as food and such. i kinda had an dispute with my mother, but as usual. like "you are for no good" "you never do anything" but oh the irony, i am always at home doing nothing haha i mean cmon, i have good grades, i have a job and i am content. i wish i could move out and start living on my own, i think my inner anxiety would go away tbh. every time i am around her i feel some kind of anxiety, like, if i say anything wrong, she'd get pissed.

do you guys ever feel that way?

anyways, enough with my mother.
today was even a city festival that i visited with a very good friend. she's like the only friend that i really truly enjoy spending time with. we went and there were fireworks, drinks, food - it was amazing. and the weather was just booomb.
at the same timeee, i have this dating app, that i installed like over a year now, i barley use it to be honest. but yesterday a guy messaged me and we kinda texted a bit like
"hi"
"hi sup"
"nm u?"
"nm"

and today, to my surprise, he asked if i was down to hang out. and i told him, no not really i am already planed to hang out with my friend (which is true) and the whole week i'd be busy (prep for school, traveling, you guys wattpad since i have time) and he understood but he'd go away for a week to holiday in portugal. we decided to meet after portugal. later the evening i asked if he was down to come to city and enjoy the fireworks and such (i am a bit tipsy yknow, courage and such) and he was like he'd love to come but the last train was around 00:30 and the time was 23:40 so there was no chance tbh.
the time i read that it's not 1:41am haha so i'll answer him now. let's see if we hang out after his portugal trip. it's suppose to be over a week, i guess 10 days.
on the 5th there's this holi festival in my town. i could of invited him but he won't be there? i'll just ask him. got nothing to lose pretty much. let's seeee. do you ever get like insecure. like it'd be nice to finally meet someone brand new yknow someone you have to discover from the inside, the interests and all. i am kinda skeptical since he's from a dating site...

well that's pretty much everything for today. tomorrow i will work on my story that i've been slacking on but tomorrow it's up, finally!

til tomorrow.