i wish i was skinnier. since my surgeries i was prevented from doing any kind of sports - for now almost 4 months. i gained around 7kg which is visible and make me anxious. i feel ugly and fat.
i started my new school and my class is alright. i made four new friends and they are so nice to me and especially S and V. but they all four are so beautiful and skinny. they all do some kind of sports and they are so chill. i wish i could be like them again, because i used to be like that. i used to be sporty as fuck, i used to play soccer, basketball, volleyball, i danced, i jogged. now i am such a potato, doing literally nothing, just eating and drinking pain killers. i hope i will be better soon and i can go train again the hardest i can to get in shape again.
i will put my results and plans on here because i can use it anyways. i will record everything, from weight to food and workouts.
i hope i'll get better soon...
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Actionthis is my diary. public, open and raw. that's it. if you like it or not.
