Experiment-51 (BoyXBoy) {COMPLETE}

16| Panic Attacks

A/N: Don't know who the people in the song are, but I really like the version ^^ Enjoy. Also** Sorry for holding back a chapter on this for so long, I've been working a bit more on DID and then stress has been piling up and just a lot of fights at home. Which aren't fun. Anyways... enjoy the chapter! Please don't forget to VOTE** Thanks! -Komaaa
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The beeping sound that played faintly in the background startled me as I forced my heavy eyelids open. Glancing around, I noticed that I was in a hospital bed? When did that happen?

All I could remember was that I was in class, with people all around me shouting and throwing things at me. They were saying things that hurt, they were making fun of me, abusing me, torturing me.

And then everything went black and I could hear that faint, familiar voice in my ears. Even if it sounded so familiar, I couldn't place the name. It was close, but so far away at the same time...

And it sounded like it was drowning.

"Oh, look, you're awake..." I could hear another familiar, female voice say. I glanced down at the end of my bed to see my sister, Lili, on her phone but with her eyes looking into mine.

"Lili? What-" I tried to ask, but she cut me off quickly, already seeming to know what I was trying to ask. And she was right.

"You ended up hyperventilating so much at school that you ended up not being able to breathe. Then you passed out and the ambulance was called... They said it could be a possible allergic reaction? Or even just a panic attack. It was baaad..." She said, typing on her phone on an app or to a friend that I couldn't see.

I groaned and leaned back against the pillow, feeling uncomfortable. I felt much better now, maybe a little sleepy and a faint headache in the back of my skull, but that was it.

"Where's father?" I asked, curious. I was inwardly praying he didn't go home, if he found Asra- the sound of the heart machine picked up faster and faster and my sister noticed easily.

"Should I get the doctor??" She asked, ready to stand up. I quickly shook my head, explaining I was just thinking about something. She visibly relaxed and then continued, not once looking up from her typing or her screen. "Father couldn't come, he's still at work. Like he always is..."

She sighed and leaned back in the chair, looking just as uncomfortable as me. "I fucking hate this place..." she commented, moving her phone down for a few minutes as she glanced around the room. "Don't know how people can stand it here."

It was nothing special. A bed in the middle of the room, a curtain that was folded on the side of my bed- not spread out, faint pale green and grey walls that matched the bedsheets and curtains. Plain white tiled floor was all there was on the ground, looking cold.

"What about Asra?" I asked. That made her glance up, an eyebrow raised at me in slight confusion. She opened her mouth, but then closed it a moment later, thinking. After a few more moments of silence and thinking, she finally decided to say something.

"Your boyfriend? Errr..." she shrugged, turning off her phone and turning to look at me, actually looking like she was willing to have a conversation for once. "Dunno where he went. Home?"

Of course she wouldn't know, she's barely home anyways. I told him to wait till I got back, so he would. He wouldn't dare leave the house knowing that father was so close nearby with his work, and the same place that Asra was tortured and abused daily.

There was just one more thing that was bugging me. I bit my lip, thinking. I had so many doubts about asking, but I just felt an aching need to ask, like it were life or death!

"Lili...?" I softly said, forcing myself to look at her. Her eyes were fixated on mine, soft and gentle instead of harsh and dark like they usually were. For some reason she looked... concerned.

She hummed a 'yes' softly and I forced the words out of my throat.

"Why are you being so nice to me...?"

The faintest smile that had been resting on her lips before, had faded and now she looked a little upset, frustrated. She looked away for a moment, her expression almost turning to embarrassed as she turned back to me.

"What... I'm not allowed to feel concerned for my own brother?" She rolled her eyes and smiled, punching me in the arm gently.

Why didn't that hurt?

"But... You used to be really mean to me, you hurt me and I wasn't able to even notice when you did the things you did! I-"

"Yeah well listen, I was a bitch back then... But the news about you has been spreading so much around the school that they decided to take it out on me too." She explained, growling softly in annoyance from low in her throat.

"So your friends turned on you too?" I felt myself asking, not able to catch the words as they spilled off my tongue.

She bit her lip.

"Yeah... I deserve that... I'm sorry..." she apologized, tucking her phone into her jean shorts pocket as she moved the chair she was sitting on, closer to me. Wow, I don't think she's ever talked to me this much...

"Well... I guess that just means we suffer together then, right?" I joked with a small laughter, even if what I was saying, wasn't funny at all.

But surprisingly, she joined me.

And we laughed together, just like we used to as kids.
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A/N: Part 2!!

Yes I'm ending it short, as I write this, it's pretty much 2AM. I AM TIRED...

So if this chapter turns out really confusing or boring, don't blame me. I can't think straight when half asleep.
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Also!! iNsAnITY_467 , PLEASE GO WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! As TODAY is her b-day!
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Happy b-day bestie/sis! We love ya, keep bringing smiles to those around you for just being yourself. Thanks for being such an amazing friend... !!!

P.S- I'll try to update this story again when I can ^^

-Koma