Songs 2019

Song 7:# Drowning

I find myself
Dancing in the club tonight
Dancing, dancing away the night
But everything, everything deep down inside of me
Keeps telling me to stop
'Cause this isn't, this isn't who I am

I'm drowning, drowning, drowning
In a sea of wine and smoke
I'm suffocating, suffocating, suffocating
In a world of drugs and sex

I find myself even, drinking
Everything is smelling of it
And, also, thinking
That no 10 000 kilolitres of beer can save me
From whatever life might wave at me
Save me from this hellhole I call a life
Please, I'm just trying, trying to survive
I find myself dancing
Dancing, dancing away the night
In the merry club's dazzling light
But no 10 000 giga hours of dancing can make me happy
'Cause love, love is what makes people happy
Something I don't have
And I haven't even realized it till now
And I haven't even realized it till now.

I find myself
Not belonging anywhere, anyplace
Not fitting in anywhere, with anyone
I want; I need, I have to have
Something to ho-old on to
Or ....someone

I need...I need, you.

I don't think amymo-oo-Ore
I just rock
But deep, deep inside me
Is a heart blister that's gonna pop

Oh yes; YES, I'm crying!
There something inside of me
Dying

I'm drowning, drowning, drowning
in a sea of wine and smoke
I'm suffocating, suffocating, suffocating
In a world of drugs and sex

I'm drowning
among the midst of it all
No one seems to care
about my downfall.
Swimming in whisky and beer
I hear their vulgarity, and I hear them sneer.

The memory of the sound of drunken laughter, the sound of pop music screaming
Will haunt me till I die
'Cause I keep asking myself, wondering
why?
I gotta feeling
telling me
that I don't know who an' what I'm dealing
with.
While I drown
dancing like a clown
They just don't care
While I suffocate
They just stare
We're swimming in whisky and beer
I hear their vulgarity, and I hear them sneer.
The image of it all will haunt
my dreams and my nightmares forever
I say to myself; never, never
I'm singing, singing, singing
My head's ringing, ringing, ringing
I hit my head somewhere and darkness surrounds me
And I hear them laugh.

It may seem like a dream; a fairytale to your eyes so young and naive
Hot girls in lingerie or sparkling evening dresses
Glasses and  heels clicking
but memories remain sticking
Dazzling coloured lights
but in those dark, dark nights
Hearts, ears, heads, pulses are pounding
Along with the rock music sounding
Someone, alone in a corner, is crying
Because something deep within them, is dying.

I don't know what or who I want
Only that I just can't
I don't know what or who I wanna be
Should be
What people want me
to become.
I don't know what people want me to be
What I should be
Only that I just wanna, wanna be me

I keep telling myself to let it go, let it be
Until darkness is finally surrounding me.

We swear;  and we laugh
At others who don't do the same
We kick them, squash them and call them lame
Not knowing or caring how much it hurts
Now I know, I know
I never knew before
how much it could hurt.

Dancing, dancing away the night
Dancing
Dancing, dancing, dancing away the night
Dancing, dancing away the night
Dancing, dancing away the night
Dancing away the night

I find myself
Drowning, drowning, drowning
No amount of clowning, clowning, clowning around
can stop the feelings of sadness overwhelming me

I found that
No amount of drugs, sex or wealth
Can make me happy
'Cause love, love, my friend, is what makes people happy
Something I want
But I don't have
I need
I need, you.