There are different types of low self esteem
One of them could be not wanting kids. You're so afraid they might turn out like you that having them might put a silver bullet through your heart. Which is the worst possible thing to imagine.
After all you don't want to pass on the sadness. So you believe that you're containing it. When really you are just hurting yourself and the people around you. Do you give in to the pressure of being a normal person or do you give up on being a person.
Sadness is a scaring thing. Some can't live with the sadness and yet others use it to thier advantage to better themselves. I hate the sadness -extract from Zahra foster diary
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24 January Wednesday
The first day of school is the absolute worst but I was extremely grateful that it was on a Wednesday instead of a Monday.
My nerves were eating as I walked up the stairs of my school. Dad dropped me of and since he always go early I'm always early at school. There were a less than decent number of people here already and I tried to not get in the way of their catch up sessions with their friends.
I was now in grade 11 and I could not in any circumstances screw this up. If I just stay focused, this year will fly by and before you know it I'll live my successful life doing my dream job. I don't know what it is yet but I'll figure something out.
The boys left the Sunday afternoon since both Kaden and Parker had classes on Monday while the twins started on Tuesday. They all went to classes three times a week.
Kaden had classed on Monday, Wednesday Friday.
Nat had on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday
Zack had Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday
Parker on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday.
Lu was pretty ecstatic about school, which was so weird I'm still questioning if an alien didn't abducte him during the night and replaced him with this version or something.
I went to the back part of the school building, there were a couple of benchs and I sat on thw one furthers while taking out my phone.
'where you at?' I sent lexi. She's usually earlier then me because of her mom but she might have over slept or something.
'Close by😆😫.' was the instant reply.
'does that mean, your a couple minutes away or an hour?😯' I chuckle at my self knowing I'll get a rise out of her.
'how dare you question my time management skills😕😣😤'
'it is something very questionable😋😟😧🤔'
'yeh well turn around 😑😈😋💩'
I did as told and there she was making her way towards me, another girl trailing behind her. I got up and hugged her.
"okay your gonna squeeze the life out of me, not to mention we saw each other yesterday" she wheezed out while hugging me back.
"Yeah well it's been too long since I saw your beautiful face" I sarcastically said while letting go.
"it is beautiful isn't it" she pulled a face that made her look constipated. Both me and the other girl laughed.
"oh gosh, where are my manners?-" I interrupted her "probably in the bottom of the largest river" the girl laughed at me and lexi glared.
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Teen FictionA seventeen year old named Zahra Foster thought the year would be great, after all it always seems like that after new years, you get a new start. But growing up with five older brothers and a dad who still have that inner child in him you don't re...
