My King ( kingbury )

I'm scared

Warning this chapter has self harm so if you are sensitive please don't read.

It's been a month since I had moved into the castle with George. It's been great but I started noticing something about George. Every night after dinner he'd head out of the castle I thought it was normal. But then I realized he was hiding something while walking out of the castle. So I thought I'd ask him about it.

I asked him the next day while we were eating. " So George what have you been doing after dinner every night? " I asked. He froze when I said that. " I-I've been doing work. " George responded. I didn't believe him. " Well ok what work? " I asked making it seem like I believed him. " Just some work on the revolution on how to win. " George said rubbing his arm. " Well ok I'm going to go. " I said and walked out of the room.

I waited for George to get out of the castle so I could follow him and find out what he's really doing. It took a few minutes but he eventually got out. I has looking out a window that I could see the front of the castle. Ok time to find out! I thought and I followed George and I wasn't prepared for what was about to find out.

I saw George crying and his arm was bleeding and next to him was a bloody knife. I quickly hid behind a tree. " I can't to this anymore. " I heard Georges say through his tears. " I just want to die already. " He said. " I tried this once but it didn't work so I'll try something else. " George said. " I'll just starve myself. So the people get their wish. " George said still crying.

I need to do something. I thought. I thought about what I should do for a while. Until I stepped out from behind the tree. " George? " I whispered sadly. That made him jump in surprise. George just stared at me for a while before he said something. " How much did you see or hear Samuel? " George asked hiding the knife. " I heard everything but I only saw the knife and your arm. " I confessed. " Guessing you're wondering why I'm doing this right? " George asked. I nodded. " Well ok sit down and I'll tell you. " George said. So I sat down next to him.

Georges P.O.V
This is a flashback while George is telling Samuel why he's hurting himself.

     It was the week after I had married Samuel and I loved it. But there's something I'm not telling him. I'm cutting myself. I didn't know how he'd react to this.

I started when we started dating on that one day I ran off saying that I had a meeting with Washington. But I lied. I was terrified that if I got closer to him he'd be hurt or worse just because we're close. I didn't want that to happen to him. But I didn't want to deny him the right to my heart.

After I was back at the castle I ate lunch and after I ate I quickly grabbed a steak knife and hid it while I walked outside to the woods. I found a spot near the middle of the woods where I could sit down. I grabbed the knife and rolled up my sleeve. I heisted before I put the knife to my skin. But I did it. I know it was bad to do but I had to do it to escape from it all.

" It's just a one time thing. " I whispered to myself after the last cut. At the time I thought I was telling myself the truth. But it just more stressful the longer the fighting lasted. I just can't deal with it.

The longer the fight lasted the more I cut. I must never tell Samuel. I thought. He'd hate me if he found out. I thought. I was still holding the knife so I threw it at I tree nearby.

" I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop! I need to stop. I NEED TO STOP! I NEED TO STOP! " I said and I didn't notice I was yelling at the end. I said that the night before Samuel found out.

~ Present time ~

      Samuel was hugging me after I told him. " George please don't do this I'm worried for you. " Samuel whispered rubbing my back. " I'll try. I responded. " Let's go back it's getting late. " Samuel said. " No let's stay here. " I responded just wanting to stay in the woods. " Ok whatever you want George. " Samuel said. " Also please don't starve yourself. " Samuel said. I nodded.

Soon enough we both fell asleep in the woods. " I love you Samuel. " I whispered before falling asleep.