chosen | m.yg + p.jm

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|Jimin

I hugged him.

I hugged him because I wanted to.

I hugged him because I needed to.

I hugged him because I missed him.

But is it all true? Or is it just because of me leaving him?

It's okay though, I missed the warmth that I felt a couple times before.

He doesn't say anything, not even a word. Just a smile, but it's enough for me.

Faint, but not forced. Broken, but still happy. Sad, but still beautiful.

Those were one of the few words that describe my feelings to him. It's normal, right? Friends get those, friends worry. It's all natural and normal.

I left his room without a word. I was happy, content, that I hugged him without him complaining. But why did I feel like crying?

Why was I sad? Why is this happening to me?

I tried to hold my tears, but I failed.

Teardrops fall down on my cheeks as my eyes go red and my cheeks are filled with drops of water from my eyes.

I end up closing my eyes out of frustration-- out of sadness and joy.

"I'm sorry.." the last words i hear, as I fell asleep.

.

I woke up with people looking at me. They all shared similar expressions-- They were worried.

Of what though?

I felt a cool, wet feeling on my forehead though, as I realize what was going on. "chim.." a voice called out.

"What happened?" Jin asks me. I stayed silent though, Laid down and just.. stared.

Hyung looked at my expression. Seeing this, he ordered the rest to go out.

God, he surely knows me.

As they left the room, they stopped.

"Get well soon"

"Be well! Have hope!"

"Poor chim, get well soon so we have someone to tease again!"

"Yah why did you get sick all of a sudden??"

They said as they left the room like hyung ordered them.

"Are you okay?"

I stayed silent, but I didn't want to be disrespectful so I tried my best to answer. But realization hit me, and I noticed there was only 4 of them... Where's Yoongi hyung?

I finally gathered the courage and asked. I asked something different though, but it's not a lie. "h..how did you know that I was sick..?"

"We didn't, we just saw you here on the floor, crying." Jin told me, worried.

He added, "You were crying in your sleep. But we noticed that your pillow was wet before you did, and realized that you cried yourself to sleep."

"We're worried Jimin. It's unlike you to keep secrets and hide your feelings. Did something happen?" He said. I was speechless. Jin hyung is very caring, how a mother would be.

He made me feel i'm with family though I never really had one.

So I decided to tell him. "hyung.." I said with a raspy weak voice. "Can I tell you something..?" I added. He nodded, "Yes, tell me anything Jimin.. I'm listening."

I told him about me and Yoongi, everything that happened, why we suddenly became distant and such.

I asked him for advice too as I let out quiet sobs and sniffles. I didn't feel that sad anymore- my heart was opposing though.

"Chim.. you shouldn't have kept those in you. You should've told us-- or me. It's not healthy to keep negative feelings only to you..." He said.

"b.. but hyung.. w-what do i-i do...??" I said. I hadn't realized I was crying until Jin hyung pulled me into a hug. A hug, a friendly hug that felt like as if I was hugging my mother.

"It's up to you. Just stop being such a closed book. Trapping your negative feelings to yourself is not advisable. Call me, I'll be always here to help and listen to you, okay?" He told me.

"ok.." I faintly smiled. He tucked me into a hug and rubbed circles on my back. I felt like I was home.

A thought came to my mind as Jin hyung was comforting me. I hesitated to ask, but I did anyways.

"Hyung.." I called out.

"Where's Yoongi hyung..?"

His smile quickly faded, and turned away from me.

"I don't know.."

"..he didn't... come.." he added.

I didn't care, it's alright, right? He may be busy.. Maybe on his new rap..? Yeah, on his new rap.. He cared about that more than me, that's alright..

But no matter how much I thought about these, I end up crying.

I cried on Jin hyung's shoulder, and slowly drifted to sleep, again. While dozing off, Jin hyung patted me on the back to comfort me. Drifting to sleep, he said a few words.

"If only you knew.."

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ugh i noticed how i switch from present to past or even botj so if ur confused im sorry im just rlly bad at weiting these things haha