Protect her (BTS x Suicidal reader)

chapter 3..1/2

i go upstair and sigh 'hmm i wish my mom dont suffer like me...' i thought and go to my mom's room,. i open my mom's door and go inside,. "hmm its so dark here..." i said softly and find the switch to the lights, a couple minute i finally found it " hah gotcha" i turn on the lights, "oh there it is.." i said and see my uniform and see there's a-- wait a blade?... i was confused and pick up the blade "its bloody...-- no wait.." i said and shock because the blade was bloody and i know why,. i ran to the kitchen and see my mom doing the dishes " oh my dear! you should go to your room to chang--" i cut her off " mom where did you get this blade..?" i said and show her the bloody blade her eyes widen and looks down "..." she was speechless cause she was caught "mom d-did you just cut yourself?...in your wrist?..." i said and go to my mom closer, i saw her eyes were in tears "i-im...sorry..." she said whispering and cries "mom...but you promise...." i said and cup her face; her puffy cheeks and reddy eyes and her sad face make me so sad and worried. i wiped her tears and smile "mom....please stop selfharming...please" i said again "i didnt cut on my wrist...." she said and lift up her pajamas " i cut on my thighs....." she said and look down once again (I FUCKING BAD AT ENGLISH ;-;) i touch her cuts and feel her pain "mom...lets go and clean your cuts and promise me once again and do it that your not going to be depressed and not going to self-harm ever again..." i said in serious and worried tone "i promise that i would not going to self-harm myself and suffer on depression and i promise that i will be a good mom to you and not going to give you any problem (Y/N) and i promise that im going to change my life" she said and raise her hands while promising,. "good now lets go clean your cuts mom.." i said and get the first aid kit to the kitchen wardrobe (fml im succ ;-;) i come back to my mom and fix her cut 'man...i dont know how would this be going to turn our life good....i just wanna escape to this..but i cant ' i thought and my mom just hug me "(Y/N)..i love you sweetie so much i really so sorry of what i cause to you.." she cried out "mom dont worry i always love you even thought you cause something bad" i said and smile.

}6 HOURS LATER{

"(Y/N)~! lets go were going to your favorite Resturantt~~!" my mom yelled downstair to go. i look at the mirror and i was earing a black anti social long sleeve, a jean and a white Converse (high :^) ) and a black hat that looks like yoongi and i let my (long/short/normal) (H/c) hair to be free (What the fuck is the hair tho? a prisoner get a life author=me) and i wear my glasses, thats all "alright coming " i said and grab my phone and go downstair,. "alright lets go sweetie!~" she said in a sweet tone and i look at her, her beautiful blossom dress and her short black hair that was only in her neck its so smooth and her pretty smile and eyes is shining argh my mom was so beautiful...unlike me im ugly. "lets go!~" she said and go inside to the car and of course i follow her and go inside too.

}A COUPLE MINUTES AGO{

"here we areee~!" My mom said while she park the car . we go outside of the car and go inside to my the 'favorite' resturant. we seat near at the window "im gonna go and buy our food and drinks" she said and smile "ok.." i smile a little and she go to the food court (i dunno im not really good at english ;-;) i look at the window and put my headphone to my ears and Rain by Bts start to play., I sigh and look at the Window once again and saw it was raining "hm.." i sigh again and look at my mom was walking over me " the food is gonna be here any minute sweetie " she smile sweetly, argh her smile! its so angelic and pretty argh i love her. the food was hear and i grab the chopstick and eat my food.

*Snap*

i look at my mom and she have a camera holding it and it was focusing on me "did you just take a photo of me?..." i said and she nod while smiling "yep i didnt remember when is the last time i take a photo of you..with your dad " she said and still smiling,. i could see the little sadness at her eyes but it will gonna be gone later.,

*After a couple minutes*

we go out of the resturant and we go inside at the car "lets buy your things in school and some things you want " she said in a happy tone "hmm ok " i said and do a fake smile a little cause i dont really want to go anywhere but this is a special day to my mom so i have to deal with it anyway.

"So this or this? " she said and holding a two long sleeve the white one have a "kindly fuck off" in the side and the pink one says "senpai" "hmmmm the whote one mom" i said and get the cloth to her "ok!" she said and put the other cloth to where it was before and walk and of course i follow her to the shoe's collection "so do what do like here? " she said and smiling "mom lets not buy anything for me now cause we have been holding too much " i said and giggles a little like no one could hear it "awhhh "she pout 'ARGH FUCH CUTE WHY MOM WHY ' i said to my head "mom stop cmon lets buy something for you" i said and go with my mom to the crashier to paid what we buy. we wehre at the escalator to go down and my mom just tap me and she point something to my right and of course i look at my right and see what is it.
i.have.been.jungshooketh
i see a kpop store and i look at my mom and we smile to each other like were going to do something shit and we rush down to the escalator and go inside of the kpop store.

so lemme get this straight my mom confess that she like kpop and as you can read that my mom listen and jamming at the fantastic baby of bigbang tho.sorry author im breaking the fourth wall bih mwuhahaha.

so i was saying..we go inside to the store and we buy things. we go to the bigbang merch section and i saw my mom's eyes like she was sooo suprised with a wide smile on her face "holy...i--my favorite idols! "she said and go and pick some yhing she want. 'wow looks like me and my mom were just sister..' i said to my mind and my mom go to me "(y/n) pick anything you want i'll going to pay it sweetie " she smiled.

to be continue...i think..fml

i tried to update but im updating this in school soo fml my teacher is now noticing this fuck bye!!