Fuck society

Suicide aftermath

Amanda handed Eddy the letter and Eddy started reading.

Dear Eddy 

My brother Eddy. I'm sorry that I am not here anymore... I am sorry that I chose this way to not be here. Please, try your best to be happy. You have Felix, Amanda and Emily. I couldn't have mattered much, right? Of course not... The biggest reason why I chose not to be here anymore is because, I couldn't imagine going through another day in this much pain. That is what it is. Pain. I was being blackmailed. I'm not going to say about and with what. Don't you worry about it. I hope you'll be happy. I wasn't. I probably am now. You were my best friend. My only friend. I know you and you may blame yourself for this. But here it is. There is nothing you could've done to stop it. So don't blame yourself if you do. The bullies took a part in why I am about to end it all. But I just don't see the point anymore. Try to enjoy your life Eddy. I love you brother. Also, all the money I had is beneath this note. It's yours. It isn't much but it's something. Make your dream come true. Go to art school and learn, what ever the heck you want. Don't give up on your dreams!

Once again. I love you Eddy.

Your brother Peter.

Eddy looked in the envelope and saw 700$. He stood up and threw the envelope on his bed. He started screaming and sobbing. Then he just let himself fall into the corner of his room. 

"Eddy... What did it say?" Asked Amanda.

"He said that it wasn't my fault... He was being blackmailed and he was being bullied he had an anxiety disorder. Post traumatic stress disorder. He clearly had been suffering from depression. It is my fault!" Said Eddy in a furious voice, yet breaking voice. 

"Eddy, it will be alright!" Responded Amanda in a comforting voice.

"NO!" Shouted Eddy. "HOW CAN IT?!"

Amanda didn't say anything and wanted to just give him a little time to calm down. "Eddy... Calm down!" Amanda said. Eddy turned his sadness into anger, she knew that about him when they first met. He was so sweet and kind but he could never deal with sadness or emotions. 

"Amanda..." Mumbled Eddy as he fell down to his knees. "It is my fault!" Tears started going down his face. Amanda got on her knees in front of him and stroked his hair. 

"Baby, it's not your fault!" Whispered Amanda. Eddy put his head on her shoulder and started crying, "I'm sorry that I am not the manly man that everyone wants me to be!" Muttered Eddy.

"You'll always be my man! You're human, you have feelings. You are manly in my eyes and who cares if you aren't in someone else's eyes! I don't care what they think! To me, you're perfect!" Said Amanda.

"Peter, he was being blackmailed..." Responded Eddy.

"Did he say about what and who?" Asked Amanda.

"No... He said don't worry..." Replied Eddy in a weak voice.

"We'll figure this out Eddy!"  

"Peter didn't deserve all that shit!" Mumbled Eddy.

"I know he didn't!" Responded Amanda. "Felix and Emily can probably help us with the blackmailing thing?" 

"Yeah, they can... But tonight can we just be together... You and I, just sleeping, cuddling and watch a movie or something!" Asked Eddy.

"Of course!" Said Amanda as she kissed him. 

Eddy stood up and put a movie on, he reached for Amanda's hand and took her onto his bed and closed the door. He got out of his jeans and jacket. Amanda took her jacket and shoes off. They together cuddled in his bed watching a movie. Eddy just stared at the TV, he was thinking about everything and nothing at the same time. He felt so guilty. This was something he could never fix and he blamed himself for that. He felt like joining him. "Do I deserve to join him?" He wondered. He started thinking Peter was different than others he was special, he dressed differently and went his own way. They hated how everyone had to fit society standards, often they used the sentence: Fuck Society. That's when he got the idea!

"Amanda!" He suddenly shouted.

"What?" Said Amanda worried.

"I just had a fantastic idea!" 

"Which is?" 

"There is nothing I could do to save Peter now, but I started thinking, Peter. He was different than other people. That's often the case of people who commit suicide! But we can do something to raise awareness for suicide, suicide prevention. Me and Peter often used the phrase: Fuck Society! I was thinking we could name it that! I just want to do something because it is my fault about Peter at least I could try to help others!" Said Eddy.

"That's a great idea, but how are you exactly planning on doing that?"

"I don't know... You, Felix and Emily can help me. Earn money, get started and everything."

"Okay... We'll help you in what ever way we can but just don't blame yourself for Peter's suicide! It isn't your fault!" Said Amanda.

Eddy ignored that and started planning all of this in his head.