Lost souls || Namjin ||

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Jin's p.o.v

I couldn't sleep all night.
Last night Namjoon came to my room and asked me about the interview... I was so nervous. I told him I didn't feel well.. And I didn't lie at all, but what I was talking about was my mental health.
There's a secret I've been hiding even from myself for about a year and a half. I am in love. And not with a cute girl, but with the leader of the band I am in. Kim Namjoon.
I've known Namjoon for years now. At the beginning he was like a dongsaeng for me, but then strange thoughts filled my head. At first I was rejecting the idea if anything like that. I thought I loved him only like my little brother, but then...the jealously striked and I became conscious of my feelings for him. He wasn't little, and he wasn't my brother. I had my moments thinking and dreaming about him, about his soft lips, his big hands, his skin, his voice, his breath, his eyes focused on mine. I thought something really is wrong with me, but soon after that I calmed and accepted my feelings. It is not something I can stop. The thoughts about my unreachable beloved got me. I'll never confess to him. I don't want him to hate me. I want to have him even only as a friend and a brother.

It was 07:00 am. I heard three knocks on my door and m heart beat faster. I took a deep breath and opened the door.
-Good morning.-I saw the most handsome man in the world with the most dazzling smile.
-Good morning-I said and smiled back.
-Are you ready?
-For what? We have 3 more hours.
-Just get dressed. We are going out.
My heart skipped a beat.
-O-okay...Just a moment.-I got inside and put on black jeans and white shirt.I combed my morning hair with water and got out. Is this like a date?
"Of course not."-I said to myself and got out.
-I'm ready.
-Okay.Gaja...
We got in his car and he started it.
Oh my frickin god...he was so handsome and sexy, with his black shorts and white T-shirt with V neck. His messy hair, and sparkling eyes. "What beautiful lips..."-I thought. I wanted to kiss him so badly.
-So where are we going?-I asked.
-Breakfast.-he said. Nothing more.
On the way we talked about the tour and then suddenly he asked
-What are you doing after that? I mean..after the tour is over.
-I don't know. I will go and see my family and then I think to go on the beach for the rest of the vacation.You?
-I got 2 weeks less than y'all I need to work.Will you be alone?
-That again? Why? You wanna come with me?
-Yeah. Why not.-he said with a wide smile.-We are here.
My heart started beating faster. I didn't expect that answer.
-It's decided then. You promise?-I said unconsciously and took my pinky out for a pinky promise.
He stopped and turned off the car as he shook my pinky.
-I promise.
My stomach flinched, and my heart fluttered at the thought.
We got out of the car. We had breakfast at a little restaurant, and sadly for me the others were here too. It was fun anyway... I love it when we are all together. I feel happy like we are a big family.
At 10:05 we were at the airport, all of our stuff was waiting for us there and at 10:30 we were in the plane for Tokyo. Our last appointment of this tour.