Lost souls || Namjin ||

Afraid.

Jin's p.o.v

-Jin hyung you are disgusting!
-Namjoon... Look...it's not what it seems like... I mean...no...I do like you but..
-Just stop! I hate you! Don't ever come close to me. I feel like puking only by looking at you.
....
Ha...ha....haa...
I woke up with heavy breathing and swollen eyes. What a nightmare. Oh wait..that awaits me in real life, doesn't it?My head hurts. I looked at my phone.
43 missed calls and 24 messages.
Hobi : Hyung where are you?
Hyung
Are you alright?
Please answer me!
Jin hyung?
Are you okay?
Please tell me where are you
I'll come immediately
JIN!!!
Pick up your fucking phone!
There also were messages from Yoongi, and Namjoon.
Namjoon: Jin where are you?
Jin hyung?
Yoongi: Hyung,are you alright? You don't have to come back if you don't want to..just tell me you are alright.
I fucking messed up.
I answered to everyone that they do not have to worry and I am going to the airport.
I saw them at the airport. J-Hope just ran to me and hugged me tightly.
"Do not cry. Everything will be alright. I told them that I called you and you told me you didn't feel well so you just rushed out.Everything will be alright."-he whispered in my ear.
I felt years coming. He's always been so considerate.
Yoongi just smiled at me and said "I am glad you are back" so I smiled back.
Then Namjoon came with the tickets.
-We are ready g...
Jin hyung! You are back!Are you alright?-he said as he patted my back.
-Yeah...
I couldn't meet his eyes. My body was shaking. I felt like I am going to puke of nervousness.
Then Hobi said
-Let's go! He needs to rest.
I just walked away and sat away from them in the plane.
I didn't want anyone to talk to me so I pretended that I am sleeping.
I woke up with heavy breathing and saw Namjoon's face centimetres from mine.
-Hyung? You awake? Are you alright?
I felt the tears coming and I couldn't stop them.
-*sniff* Yeah...*sniff* I just had a nightmare. That worst nightmare in my life.
-You were crying and apologizing in your dream. Is everything okay?
I couldn't respond I was sobbing like an idiot. What was I supposed to say?
Then I felt his big hands embrace me. His hug was so warm and comfy. It calmed me down and made my heart race at the same time.
-I am sorry for...you know.. The kiss and everything.
-What are you talking about? Is that why you ran away?
-Kinda yeah...
-Hyung-He said as he held my face in both hands towards him.
-I sure was startled but don't overthink it!It was only fan service.
-O-okay.
A rock fell off my heart.
He got up and said
-Just rest for now. And don't be depressed over something little like this. It was only a kiss. And...you aren't so bad yourself. It's not like you like me or anything... Then that WOULD be a big problem kekeke. It was only natural of you to kiss me when I was this close.
Then he walked out of the room.
I felt my heart breaking into million pieces.
"What are you so upset for? You knew it would be like that from the very beginning."
I started crying quietly, till I fell asleep.

When we got out of the plane I
was first. I put my sun glasses on so no one could see my swollen eyes. I got a cab and told him to drive anywhere far from here.