I swear I'm okay
Is what I'll tell you
Because
I'm flexible
Able to bend to anyone's whims
Unlike everyone else
Who has an opinion
I just go along
I lick everyone's wounds
No wonder
I am a Sylph of Rage
The ultimate moirail
The one who helps others
And gets no help herself
But I don't blame you
Her annoying, persistent smile
Even if she does cry
What of it?
She'll get better
She always has
But sometimes
You can only bend so much
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I hate you
Did you know that?
I used to love you I guess
Forced into a relationship
That sunny afternoon
My long hair sticking to my back as I nervously sweated
I had told them
He hadn't asked me
He hadn't asked me
But yet
They insisted
No
You're together
You're together
Like some sick peer pressure
Again
My fault
That I accepted
Forced into a relationship
When you called me
And told me we were together
I hate you
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE A SINNER
I HATE YOU FOR KEEPING ME HERE
IMPRISONED BY YOUR SWEET INNOCENCE
I HATE YOU
YOU WONT LET ME GO
YOUR LOVE
IS LIKE UNBREAKABLE CHAINS
I WILL NEVER ESCAPE
UNLESS I LOSE A PART OF MYSELF
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
Because if I keep loving you
I'll hate myself instead
I don't love you
I don't know if I ever did
Or if that's just my heart
What a fickle thing
You've fallen for everyone
The kid at the library
The tall one
Neon
Even the golden fish
The youngest one,
The basketball player
The violet one
Sabrina
You've fallen
Every single one
Is another step down
Into the inescapable abyss
That some day
Will become my home
Because I can't stand to see the sunlight
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I think I'm a psychopath
I don't feel emotions
At least
Not on my own
My grandmother has cancer
The first thing I thought was:
Make it look like you care
Because I guess I didn't
My sister is injured
My first thought is:
Try not to laugh like last time
Because I find it funny
When people get hurt
But for some reason
Whenever I'm with you all
The knot gets untied
The fog gets cleared
I can think straight
That is when I feel
How you feel
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