Between The I Hate You's (ON HOLD)

♬ 1 / The Bad Boy And Cupcakes

                             ** Insert your playlist here✉️**

"Forever we remain oblivious to the future,
         lost to the past and enduring our torture.
                         Forever we take chances to settle our scores,
                                losing some battles and winning some wars."

-unknown 

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EVERYONE says love is something that always hurts. To be honest, not as much as loneliness hurts. Or rejection and so does envy. But out of them all, the one that hurts the most is losing someone you once loved. People gets these things confused with love. But in reality, love is the only thing that covers up all the pain. It is not the love that we get but the love we have towards ourselves. 

And that's something I can't seem to attain no matter how high I keep on reaching for it. 

"Three more laps and you're done!" Coach Harvey blew his whistle signaling me to carry on. 

My body was worn out in sweat, while I just prayed for my legs to work for another two laps. Unfortunately, I passed out a few minutes later on the track.

"What the hell are you doing, Rein!" Coach's sharp tone and shadow lingered over me.

Ever since Coach discovered that I used to run when I was a little girl, he's been torturing me like this for weeks. "You've got potential and we're going to dig it out if it's the last thing I do!" Were his exact words of terror.

I wasn't too fond of the idea as it was something I'd long given up on. No matter how hard I tried I can't grab ahold of my previous speed. Maybe it's just that I don't want to run again.

A very unpleasant but familiar memory appeared on my mind, "Father! Mother! please open your eyes. Please I'm begging you!" 

"Rein? Are you deaf? Don't be such a failure and get your ass back on the game!" He yelled above me, bringing me back to reality.

"Coach, I'm too tried I can't."

"If you keep running like this, I don't think you'd last a minute in the competition, rein." He growled, disappointed.

"Maybe I shouldn't go then." 

"Nice try, rein. But you ain't getting out of this. This is what you're meant to do so stop whining like a little baby an run like the old you." 

The old me? Doesn't he realize that part of me is already dead. 

"Take a few days off practice to clear your head. Then come by here at eleven after. Get it?" 

"Yes, coach." The only reason I even agreed to this was because Coach Harvey said he'd upgrade my sports score to a A+. And that's a huge deal because gym is the only activity I always fail at. For now, I just had to pretend like I actually like what I'm doing. 

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"Are you sure?" I asked.

The lady looked at me, annoyance across her wrinkled face.

"Yes, the last of the our chocolate cupcakes were sold a minute ago." She repeated again. "Would you like anything else?"

"No thanks." I looked at her faintly and stepped away from the queue behind me.

It was confirmed, I had the worst luck known to teenage existence. 

At least to my teenage existence.