It's Our Secret Angel~

I Swallow in the Curses~

Hoseok cursed himself as he moved over to the conveniently large sized bed. Jimin had to be testing him now, this was far too much to be coincidental. He was purposely exposing his pale coloured skin to tease Hoseok. That's all the reasoning Hoseok was able to come up with.

He'd gotten a taste of Jimin and he craved more, more, but he felt that this scene was all being played out wrong. Hoseok isn't sure whether he would admit it but he wasn't for one night stands. They lacked emotional connection and the promise to happen again. Which is why he'd been holding back and hesitating. He didn't want to be a one time deal. He wanted to be long-term as cheesy as it sounded.

Even if Jimin did magically like him back, there was no guarantee he'd sacrifice himself like that. Hoseok worked a lot. Even saying 'a lot' was an understatement. No one in their right mind would give up their heart to a man who can't give them the attention they deserve.

And with all these thoughts processing through Hoseok's mind he still moved over to the huge bed, positioning himself on top of Jimin, gently pressing his lips against the boy's neck as his hands explored under his thin shirt. The touches of skin against skin felt so good that even his mind screaming at him to stop was bypassed for instead careless pleasure.

Jimin whined underneath him bringing a fiery burning to his abdomen. The sound was that of a beautiful angel who had fallen into the tempting trap of sin.

"Hoseok." Jimin breathed out the name seductively, causing him to pause and repeat the sound over and over in his mind.

"What is it Jimin? Should I stop?" He asked a little hazed.

"N-no. I'm just confused. You wanted me, then you didn't want me." His gaze shied away and his attention instead fell upon Hoseok's lack of clothing. He'd gone to get undressed when Jimin began his second stream of teasing for the night, leaving him more exposed than Jimin.

"I have wanted you all night, but I'm afraid." Hoseok finally came to the decision that he should just be open with Jimin as embarrassing as it was for him to speak his mind. "I'm afraid that you'll want to make this a one time deal and I'm not sure I can emotionally deal with that. You're really-" He paused finding a singular phrase in the sea of compliments he wished to tell Jimin. "-breathtaking. So as much as I would love to take you like this, I'm not sure I should."

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At the end of Hoseok's reasoning Jimin was left somehow even more breathless. Did Hoseok really have such feelings towards him? The thought troubled his mind in a positive way, but it still threw him off his path of desire.

He hadn't had a one night stand for a long time, and had never planned having such an encounter again after what had happened. His sex drive had just seemed to be building up after not having any release with another person for so long. Especially with a job that requires getting all hot and bothered, being able to contain himself has proven to be painful.

Both Jungkook and Taehyung had offered to help in some strange threeway to help the younger out because they knew how much he'd been struggling mentally, sexually, and even physically after what had happened.

He of course just refused the offer from his close friends, only once letting Jungkook give him a hand-job with the permission of Taehyung. They'd both suggested doing more, but that was the maximum amount of sexual activity Jimin would let himself have whilst being involved his best friends.

"I don't want to push you." The words he spoke were truthful, but at the same time his body was aching to be touched. Two years was a long time to deal with only the quick flick of the hand. He wanted to feel something. Though there was always the fear in the back of his mind.