Wind in our wings (On Hold)

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The door opens and the doctor moves out of the room. Squishing Theodore's hand I stand up letting go of the little boy's soft hand. Walking towards the doctor, everything seemed like going in slow motion. His expression was unreadable, his hands crossed together in front of his stomach and his mouth was fixed in a thin line as his eyes were staring at my tired ones. The three damned words coming out of his mouth caused me to break down as a squeaky noise came out of my mouth.

Falling down to the cold floor, Theodore comes running towards me embracing me in the sweetest hug. With tears falling down my eyes I hug my little angel as hard as I can. I break into sobs and tears fall on my baby's blue hoodie. Jace's mom comes running in panic as my Theo whispers in my ear.

"Is dad fine, mom?"

Not being able to make out any coherent words or sentences, I look at him in the beautiful green eyes of his while touching his smooth cheeks softly. I force a smile and stand up.

"Melanie, it's okay." Jace's mom speaks as she hugs me. During the full 1 minute of the hug, memories from me and Jace come into my mind. Our first kiss, our wedding, our honeymoon, Theodore.

"Dude, I fucking love you." his soft voice meets my ears the moment I stop laughing. "and do you know what I love the most about you?"

"what?" I question staring at the eyes I could get lost in anytime anywhere without my will. Touching me cheek and smiling he opens his mouth.

"Whenever I say 'i love you' you don't reply with 'i love you too', you just say 'i love you' back."

"that's because I genuinely love you, Jace. And I will never stop." The words come out of my mouth delicately as I mean every single word I have just said.

"Even if I get sick?"

"Even if you get sick."

After we all calmed down, the doctor announced that we can see him. He wanted to see his son first, then his mother , then Max but he wasn't there; he was at home sleeping on the couch or on our bed in his own dog world. Jace was disappointed. Then he asked for me.

I walk into the white room looking directly at the man I once fell in love with. He smiles gently before tapping on the free spot next to the hospital bed he was laying on, signaling me to go sit next to him. I obeyed and sat down. Holding my tears I smiled at my husband as I take ahold of his left hand.

"i'm sorry." he suddenly speaks, looking at me with sad eyes. His voice trembled and shook. "i'm so sorry." And then, he broke down. He began crying and crying, tears falling down from his beautiful eyes. Hugging him, I whisper in his ear.

"you've done nothing wrong."

"baby."

"i love you"

He stops crying after a few minutes and just stares at me. His eyes are red and puffy and almost closed. His eyebrows need to me fixed, and his hair is all over the place. I can see Theodore in him since he looks just like his father; the same colour of eyes, the same curve on their nose, the same smile. I can't help but smile involuntarily.

"what?" he asks. His voice was soft and broken.

"nothing."

"cancer is a fucking curse." he breathes as he caress my hand staring at it.

"God chose to give it to you. You know why?" he shakes his head. "because you're an angel and you deserve to be in heaven with Him." Exhaling deeply he simply shakes his head while lowly laughing.

"it's not fair." he bitterly exclaims

"what is?" I reply moving my fingers to Jace's face touching his cheek softly.

"i want to do so many things to you, right now, but there are security cameras and i can't." he says, taking his gaze from me to the security camera staring down at us from the corner of room. I laugh.

"it's okay." I simply say before my smile touches his. His lips are dry and rough but I kiss them softly and gentle feeling the same feeling I felt when we kissed for the first time. The moment his hand moves around my neck, I giggle and pull away.

"even in this situation, you're the best kisser in the world." I blurt out looking down at my hands.

"Oh I know."

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[UNEDITED]

Hello guys, it's Maria, back at it again! This is a quite short chapter but at least I finally uploaded the sequel, right? Now that it is published I will sure have motivation to keep writing. :)

I hope i got better in writing and all this stuff but just a disclaimer: English is my SECOND language so, yes, there will be grammatical or spelling mistakes so if you can't handle that, then don't read the book.

You can read 'The Deal' before starting reading this if you want some backstory even though you can just begin reading this right away.

I will try my best to keep up with a schedule and update chapters as often as I can, even though I have exams and school work and all that shit but the moment summer vacations start then hopefully I can write until my fingers bleed.

I love you and thank you for the support.

-M