She Was The Queen

Chapter Ten ✅

I knew that winter was coming to an end soon when I woke up early this morning. Small patches of the Sun were evident in the sky, in fact they had woken me up on my half of the bed. I was thankful that Khai was respecting my boundaries, I could actually trust him with my heart someday. It had been two days since that brief incident in the tub. I had no control, it wasn't me I swear. It was like a whole other force over me, I didn't know whether or not it was my wolf or not but I had no control. My eyes were on fire and his blue ones were glowing. I had never seen anything as beautiful as he was in that moment. A sudden flood of desire came over me and I wanted him fully. I don't know what it was at all but I was also uncertain of whether or not I regretted it. But it wasn't just a kiss, it was so infused with something I couldn't explain.

In the past days I started to pick up something in Khai, he wasn't like everyone, obviously but he acted different.
"I like this dress, maybe you will look good in it too." I looked up from biting my lips,  at Yolanda who held a floral dress to her body.
"It seems short, its still winter." I shunned.
"Oh come on, winter will be over in a month or so, you even said it." She said walking to me from the other side of the clothing rack.
"I don't know." I shook my head.
"Dude, Khai gave you his card to go wild. If I were you I would abuse this opportunity, he isn't so generous." Yolanda said with a smile as she handed me the dress.
"Oh ok I'll see if it fits me." 
"Yeah." She led me to another aisle. We had been shopping for hours and I noticed that I had an unidentifiable sense of style, nothing really looked good to me and the guilt of using people's money made it worse. I wanted to take as less as possible. "Roman you stress too much, relax."
I followed the tawny-head into a more erotic section of the shop. There were mannequins who were not dressed but only in small materials coving their breasts and crotch area. "What are we doing here?" I asked her, feeling so much repulsion toward this section. Yolanda skipped deeper into the section and picked out hanger with two small black, lacy items. "Yolanda?"
"How about this?" She asked.
"What's the point of wearing underwear if its so revealing?" It made me feel uneasy when I focused more on panty than the bra, it had no back part, just a string?  "That would give me an uncomfortable wedgy." I frowned. Yolanda kept her honest smile at me.
"Aren't you and Khai going to... you know." She probed, nudging her head at me.
"Aren't we going to what?" 
"Aren't you guys going to do it?" She an arched a brow. I gasped and covered my mouth to giggle.
"Put that down, no." I shouted in a whisper and she giggled with it, bringing it closer. "Khai and I haven't even done that." I shook my head.
"Oh yeah, you guys and duck tape." She sighed, still pressing the undies on me.
"And I definitely don't need this skimpy stuff." I said letting it fall to the floor.
"Do you think its nice to find a full on brief when you undress your lady. Jacob told me that lingerie turns him on." Yolanda said with a wink and picked it up.
"Well my mate isn't Jacob, its Khai." I admited for the first time, verbally. "Besides I don't wear it anyway."
"You don't wear underwear!? You animal." Yolanda exclaimed so dramatically. "Just try it." I took it in my hand in embarrassment and looked at it in fixed way.
"How will I know its about to happen?" I asked.
"You don't,  just wear it." She replied and I sighed. "All taken women wear matching underwear, besides you will undress in front of him everyday-"
"Not really, he gives me space for that too." I waved my hand.
"Roman you know that this man is your mate right?" She squinted her eyes at me with so much solemnity.
"Yes." I nodded.
"Then treat him like that. Isn't the duck tape enough misery for him?" She asked, making me unable to answer. "I know that maybe you may not feel it as badly as he does but he wants to touch you, love you but if you keep on denying him just a touch, he will be sick like Linda." She warned. I looked down and a thought arrived.
"What's wrong with Linda?" Yolanda picked another pair for me.
"Linda and her mate separated." She said simply.
"Is that why her aura is so mared?" 
"It's heavy hey." Yolanda complained in agreement. "He was abusing her, I guess he wasn't feeling the imprint as strongly as she did. She was the one who imprinted on him first and I guess he didn't love her that much. We made them separate." Yolanda stopped and looked at me. "So you get it. You need to give in." Yolanda advised.
"I'm not ready." I admitted.
"You are not ready to cuddle?" She asked, tilting her head to the side.
"No, like to be in an intense relationship."
"You will never be ready." Yolanda frowned at me.
"You'll never understand what I'm going through."
"You're right." Yolanda darted. .