Shifting Journal

Entry one

Another shifting journal, lol yea, I know butttt, this is no ordinary shifting journal

I'm starting from the beginning, like from the VERY BEGINNING!

I haven't even started meditating yet, but we'll get to that in a minute.

Lets talk about why I want to become a mermaid.

Ever since I was little, I felt different. Trapped kind of. At the time, I didn't know what 'Trapped' meant and I could only describe it as feeling like I was in a box and I couldn't get out of it, like feeling confined.

I wouldn't say I was miserable but I just felt very out of place and just odd being here.

Other little girls were worried about barbie dolls and toys and I was always the odd one out because all of that stuff just didnt interest me, at all.

My mom always called me "Mysterious and Quiet" because I was always exploring and doing things by myself instead of worrying about who likes me and who doesn't.

Then one day, I came across an episode of H20, and when I saw the tails, something just clicked inside of me. I instantly became obsessed and I have been for years.

Now, it wasn't the powers that caught my attention, it was the way they swam and the expressions on their faces, it was the way the ocean looked, it was the way the waves looked against their tails. They looked truly happy and free and I wanted that, I wanted to experience and have that same feeling.

For years, I've tried all types of spells and none of them have worked. I began to lose hope as I got older and I was on the verge of giving up.

But then, I heard about shifting and how it worked. I was curious and I checked it out, it seemed like a  plausible and simple method but I still had my doubts. I heard about all the people who've done it and it worked for them, which gave me so much hope.

That was 2 years ago. I've been thinking about it and I've decided that I want to do shifting.

I understand that shifting is a long and hard process and I'm very determined.

I will literally stop at nothing to achieve this goal.

Well that's it for today! I will try to update everyday and make sure to give as much information on shifting as possible!

P.s I will be updating more today just because I've already made a lot of entry's, I just never posted them.

- Topaz (don't judge my name)