My Quick Writes

There's This Girl...

Slight trigger warning possibly.
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There's this girl that I see everyday. No matter what. She's always there. She's always there for other people to listen and help them through whatever they're dealing with. The only issue is, is that she can't take her own advice, or others compliments, or anything that could help her. She prefers to keep things to herself so others don't have to deal with her problems and worries and everything, when they probably have their own to worry about and deal with.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She doesn't like making people worry or ask if she's ok. When asked if she is, she smiles and says shes 'fine', then asks how anyone could think to ask her that. They all say idk or you just seemed off. When she says she's fine, sometimes she means it, but other times, the word fine could mean so many different things that no body would understand.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She constantly tries to have a smile on her face all the time and spread good feelings and words to everyone. Sometimes that smile is a mask to hide how she is truly feeling. She hides behind it so that others don't feel obligated to change how she feels or drop what they're doing and come to her side. The mask usually fools everyone all the time.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She has deep secrets inside her that few know. Although even some that are really close to her don't know, she can't tell them or let them see what is actually happening inside of her head. Most of the time she doesn't know either. She keeps these secrets inside, hidden, in the dark. She tries so hard for them to never see the light of the outside world and those she cares about.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She's in a constant, never-ending battle in her head. Her head tells her one thing, but then it tells her another. It tries to fix things, while making them worse at the same time. There will never be a winner or a looser of this battle cause it will never end.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She avoids people in public places unless with friends or family, but she still avoids them as much as possible. She's quiet and nervous and worrisome and introverted, but loud, care-free, crazy, and herself when with the people she loves and is comfortable with. People try to get her to be more outgoing and social, but she just can't.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She  overthinks everything. Thinks everything is out to get her sometimes. Believes that some people have bad thoughts about her, even her closest friends, but not all the time. She thinks that she isn't that important and what people say are to make up for everything she has said to them.

There's this girl that I see everyday. She doesn't like how she looks. Doesn't really like pictures of just her and has to have someone else in it, just so she'll take the picture. She has so many doubts in her mind that they take over sometimes. She apologizes for everything, even if she doesn't have to or it's not needed.

There's this girl that I see everyday. I tell her to stop thinking, worrying, and making things worse. She doesn't listen most of the time. She'll break down at night sometimes, for absolutely no reason at all. I tell her to calm down. She sometimes listens. She writes and read things that realte to her and get her feelings out. She's a wreck inside, but she wouldn't change her life at all, because doing that would mean changing everything. She couldn't do that. She couldn't start over again. She's also a hopeless romantic, happy most of the time, would do literally anything for those she loves and loves the world. She just needs to learn to love herself as well and everything that goes on in her head, which may not happen, but it's nice for her to have hope.

There's this girl that I see everyday. You know her and she knows you. Lots love her and few loathe her. She's sunshine on the outside and a constantly changing storm on the inside.

There's this girl.....

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Hey look at that an update. Lol. This little thing that I just wrote for you all to read is very interesting I guess you could say. I thought of it after reading random quote things online. This thing really speaks for itself basically. Thank you all for reading. I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever. There is honestly no excuse except for writer's block and lack of inspiration for anything. Love you guys. Remember to vote, comment, share or pm me if you have anything you need to talk about. High fives!! Buh-bye!!

~Dreamer0512 (Shelby) :) <3