my brother's best friend

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"thanks again." i sniffled and rubbed my eyes. "you really helped me...god i'm so sorry i put you through that—"

"hey don't apologize for being hurt." kelsey shook her head slightly. "i'm here whenever you need anything."

i smiled and stopped walking on the grass to give her a hug.

"you're amazing." i mumbled into her ear as i pulled away and gave her a smile.

she slightly smiled back, and i sighed and looked around.

"it's getting pretty late...sorry i didn't mean to depress your night—the crying wasn't really planned." i shrugged, feeling slightly embarrassed.

"justin it's completely fine." she giggled. "guys can have feelings and emotions too."

"yeah." i let out a breath. "well i'll see you around."

she nodded slowly with a small smile as she backed away.

"feel better." she whispered as she walked away quickly, making me feel kinda weird inside.

she wasn't herself, i think something was up. i don't know what it was but something was really bothering her lately...fuck why didn't i bring it up...

i sighed and began walking towards my car before i hopped in and began driving slow, thinking over some things.

once i got home i fell in my bed and placed my earbuds in, blasting i fall apart.

She told me that I'm not enough, yeah
And she left me with a broken heart, yeah

She fooled me twice and it's all my fault, yeah
She cut too deep, now she left me scarred, yeah

Now there's too many thoughts goin' through my brain, yeah
And now I'm takin' these shots like it's novacane, yeah

i sighed and shut my eyes. i've been having mixed feelings lately about kelsey, and i don't really know what to do about them. but don't get my wrong i love hailey, i still do. but she broke my heart.

i slid my hand through my hair, tugging at the ends due to confusion. my feelings are so fucked up lately and i don't know what to do.

maybe it was a sign when hailey cheated on me, maybe god's telling me to go for kelsey? but i'm not sure she feels the same way though, and i don't wanna ruin our friendship either.

i bit my lip and scrolled through my contacts. everyone was either on vacation or people i've drifted apart from. i usually talked about this stuff with jackson but, he's an ass right now and i don't wanna deal with his shit. plus he would cut me if i talked about his sister like that.

i twisted my lips and pressed call on a contact i was unsure about, but i placed the phone by my ear anyways.

"hello?"

"hey za, i know we haven't talked for a long time but i'm kinda in some deep shit right now and i don't know who to talk to you—"

"ah i see." he paused. "talk to me bro, i'm all ears."

i smiled to myself, knowing that our friendship was always still strong in the end.

"okay." i took a deep breath before continuing. "so there's this girl."

k

once i reached home, i unlocked the door and opened it slowly, jackson immediately barging into the living room.

"hey dinner's in the kitchen—"

"i'm good, thanks." i mumbled as i began making my way up the stairs.

i felt my arm pull back as i slightly stumbled and came face to face with jackson.

"what happened?" he crossed his arms as he waited for an answer.

"nothing im just tired—"

"it's not nothing kels, i know something's up." he licked his lips. "why don't you talk to me anymore? i feel like we're growing apart by the minute. i'm you're older brother and i'm here for you if you need anything—"

"yeah well it really doesn't seem like it." i cut him off as i kept my eyes on his feet.

jackson scoffed and shifted his weight to the other side as he glanced around.

"fine." he muttered. "i said i'm sorry, i don't know what else you want—"

"all i want is for you to leave me alone." i hissed as i spun around and jogged up the stairs so he wouldn't stop me again.

once i reached my room i fell onto my bed and took a deep breath.

god this was so hard to watch, he was in so much pain...over a girl who didn't even love or appreciate him.

i actually felt like bursting into tears when he called himself "not good enough" or "a terrible boyfriend," because he's all i've ever wanted and he didn't see it.

he didn't see that he was such a warm hearted person. he didn't see that he was kind and precious. he didn't see that he was the guy every girl had dreamed of. and worst of all, he didn't notice that i had been falling for him for years.

i slapped myself in the face as i thought of this. come on kendall don't be selfish, he just went through a breakup and he's madly in love with her...stop thinking about yourself.

i bit my lip and changed out of my clothes, washed off my makeup and got ready for bed.

after i shut off all the lights i lied down in bed and unlocked my phone.

i viewed justin's page and sighed once i saw his last post from a few days ago.

374 likes

justinbieber: miss my baby
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i bit my lip and shook my head in disbelief. the fact that he poured his heart out for her makes me sick. what did he even see in her? she seemed like a heartless bitch.

i finally drifted off to sleep, dreaming about...well, nothing.