The Letters » h.s ✔️

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A/N : Thank you to whoever commented and voted this story. I really appreciate them. I need to finish this asap cause I have to write and edit my other story. I'm shit at writing the first few chapters lmao. And if anyone here hasn't checked it out yet, it's on my profile "Swan Lake".

All the love, D.

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I sat silently on the chair at my backyard. I wrote the last line of his letter and put down the pen. Looking up, the once sunny sky was now grey and gloomy. A drop of water fell carelessly on my feet and followed by the other. I hurried myself back to the house and a few second laters after I went in, it was downpour. I always loved the rain. I used to think that the rain could wash away everything in this world, but clearly the feeling I have for him was still there. In fact, it was getting stronger.

I went up to my room and put down the letters I had for him on my desk. The sound of raindrops brutally hit my windowsill made me look out to the window. There he sat on his bed, also looking out to his window and stared at me. In a second a smile broke to his face. I could see his dimples formed in his both cheeks, making his face more flawless than before.

I simply smiled back at him, mentally holding my heart from cracking for a thousand times. His smile sent electricity to my brain down to my heels. But, that smile could never be mine. I kept remind myself that I'm okay with that, but it was just so hard.

He waved his hand to me and I waved at him back. We stared at each other for a few moments. I could stare at him all my life and never get tired. Then, something happened to him. Like he just snapped back from our little moment and look away from me. My heart wanted to scream at him but I hold it. I couldn't.

I walked to my bed and laid there, listening to the sound of rain. It's been a few months since he confessed about his relationship with Louis to me. I still wasn't okay. I think it's got worse.

My brain told me to let go, but my heart wanted to hold him a little a bit longer.

What should I do?