The Art Of A Happy Breakup

The Art Of Moving On

I was walking home like a total wreck. Hindi ako tumitingin sa dinadaanan ko. Hindi ako tumitingin sa likod oh sa kahit anong direksyon. I'm not myself. I'm like a total Zombie. I've no feelings and I'm not planning to give any to anyone right now. Feeling ko konting hangin nalang ang dadapo sa mga mata ko tutulo na yung mga luha ko. Thats why I'm looking down as much as possible.

Dimon asked if he can drive me home but I refuse. I need to let myself know that he'll never gonna be always there when I need someone to send me home like before. I'm starting to move on with my life.

I Went home with all my family complete in our living room. Dad hugging Mom from behind while watching some series. My younger brother with his girlfriend on the other sofa. And my ate doing some works on her laptop while eating some loads of chocolates.

I noticed Mom having a few strand of white hair and some wrinkles under her eyes. I noticed Dad loosing some weight and toned his body more. I noticed how big my brother grew now. He's gonna be a fine young men soon. The way he treat her girl makes me so proud of him. I also noticed ate getting a little fat from eating all of her sweets every time she does her work...

Ang dami na palang nagbago sakanila. I'm living here with them in the same roof but why did I just noticed all of these little details about my family now? Para bang ang tagal kong nawala at ngayon lang ako totoong nakauwi.

All my life I've been thinking if demon was ok, if he had his dinner or I, most of the time eat dinner with him everynight because I dont want him to be alone and we do our projects and school works together as well, that made me go home late almost everyday. And its been a year.

May mga bagay na nakakaligtaan ko na pala dahil busy akong ibigay lahat ng atensyon ko kay Dimon. I almost forgot I also have a family to be with. Hindi ko na alam anong update sa buhay nila. I dont even know whats the name of my brothers girlfriend or when did they met or are they even really together or are they dating?

I dont even know what's my ate's new job because I'm not sure if its last month she has to leave his previous job... and I dont know the reason why and I'm sure the rest of the family does.

And also, Mom and Dad. They're growing old. The next thing I will know, ate will move out with his boyfriend, My brother will also move out for college and I'm also gonna graduate and follow my dreams to be an Engineer at London and we will all leave them both here alone. I have all the time to bond with my family but I rather spent it with Dimon all the time. All the freakin time. I almost forgot na nandyan pa pala sila.

"Ate! Ang aga mo yata?" My brother stood up excitedly and grabbed some of my paper works and bag from me and gave me a peck on my cheeks.

That caught all of their attention then they all cheered for me being so early today and for us being complete. I know, because I'm always with Dimon.

"Why are you so early? Nag away ba kayo ni Dimon?" Mom also stood up and gave me a hug. Just by hearing his name I felt like someone stabbed me. The moment she let go... I started crying. I cried like a kid wanted to really, really hug everyone because right now? I need them. I really need my family.

I told them we broke up even I know it's really not yet official but, I know where it will end. They all was there for me even if I'm not there for them when I really need to.

"Sobrang mahal ko po sya, Ma, Dad, feeling ko yung sakit na nararamdaman ko hindi na matatapos. Masasanay nalang ako sa sakit."