Who. What. When.

Like the old time

I always wished that I could time travel... You know, something that I truly miss from the old times is the music and the true meaning of love.

Now what is love about? Internet? Fuck buddies? Jerks who loves to play?

But still... I still hope that one day... Someone will ask me out the old way...

The perfect dream would have been to be invited to a dance but... Ya know... I'm a very bad dancer. And when I talk about dancing, I'm not talking about shaking your body like an epileptic crisis or just to warm up the temperature... Nah.. Something more... Jazzy!

But like... Wow. The only time in my life that someone actually flirted with me was a creepy old pervert. Yikes! Most awful time of my life. But, maybe it will be another story time...

Today, I felt empty.

I laid in my bed all day... I didn't wanted to eat, to move... I was sad, for no reason. So I thought "Maybe if I play a bit on my computer?"... I did... For like thirty minutes and then get back to bed...

I... I just don't know why but today wasn't a good day... So I stayed in my bed... I started watching some vids on youtube... Science of the depths, something about octopuses, fishes and underwater stuffs... [Stop in the writing: Pat, you're really sweet.] Then I followed the suggested videos... Over and over... And finally... I found back a channel on which I subscribed earlier... It's a channel where you can find all types of short-animated and when I found it, I truly liked it.

So I watched a bunch more videos... Then I found one. A pretty interesting one that made me realized what I was missing in my life... True love.

I'm a shy guy and I'm gay. So it's not easy to find people like me. I decided to find people like me online. It really helped but it was kind of a trap too.. But hum...

I only wish that one day... Someone that I already like or a cute guy that I don't know at all, will come toward me in the street and ask me out. Not in the cringe day of nowadays but um... More something like "Hey... I know that it might sound really weird but... You're pretty cute...". Even if he leaves me just with that... I'll be glad forever. I want... a date.

A true date. Someone that will ask me out, take me to the restaurant or even invite me at his place to eat sushis while watching movies. I want someone that will show me the world in a way that I don't know. I want someone that can makes me smile, makes me laugh and even if I look awful when I smile with my teeth, I will not care at all, because I will be happy. I never actually laugh... I think most of my laugh are nervous or fake but... Yeah.. I rarely laugh because I was happy... I want someone who will told me that I look beautiful when I wake up... Even if I look horrible and I smell like fish. I want someone that can handle all of my personalities... Someone that I can yell at, cry at, laugh at but that will never be mad at me... I want.. I...

I just want someone who can love me..

Someone who... Doesn't consider me as a what, but as a who..

Someone.. That likes all of my imperfections..

I just..

I just want someone...