Poetry For The Hurt And Loved

Maybe

Sometimes I feel like I was never fine
Maybe I was always this broken
Sometimes I wonder if everything I do is pointless
Maybe I'm just a waste of air
Sometimes I get sad and don't know what to do
Maybe I should just end it all
Maybe I should just go...die
We are all pointless
We're all gonna die
So who cares about the now
Who cares about the future
Who cares about me
Maybe we all are as useless as we think
Maybe one day we'll realize how pointless we are
Maybe one day ill be happy
And that's worth living for
But
Maybe I won't get better
And I won't wake up happy
Maybe I will kill myself
And I'll finally be making a difference
I'll be gone and everyone could stop talking about me
Maybe
Maybe I'm just doing my sad rants for no reason
Because I know
I'll never be brave enough to end it
I know I'll never be selfish enough to die
I know I'll be here for a long time
I don't want it
But I'm just a weak bitch
I'm not strong enough
To end it all
I don't want to live
But I have to
I'm not selfish
I'm just sad
And crazy
And...maybe I'm a good person somewhere