Poetry For The Hurt And Loved

Do you ever

Do ever feel like everything is alright
Until
You start to slowly see yourself fade
Your personality is dulled
All the bright vibrant parts of you
Have become only light shades of blue and grey in this disgusting mixture only the brew of a witch could create.
You've turned into a revolting pastel
A mix of everything you hate
Do you ever feel like you'll be your old self
Where your laugh aren't fake and your smiles arent forced
Where you'll look in the mirror and see something beautiful
When you don't hate every single thing you do
Do ever get hope
For a better today
Or even a better tomorrow
Do you ever
Wish you weren't you
You were another person
Who didn't have such sick thoughts
Or regret every second they're alive
Do you wish you could just disappear
Not die just go away
Until you feel better
Until you feel whole
Until you feel like yourself
Until your vibrant
And smart and happy
Just like you were before
Do you ever wish life would just pause so you can catch up?
Do you ever wish you were okay