Gabe's p.o.v
Scalett's face is filled with curiosity...her eyes wide open in wonder. I can read her every emotion on her small scared face. She's worried about Clay...worried about him 24/7 but then there's me. The only guy who can see her, understand her and now she's standing here asking me what's wrong. Waiting for the truth. I should tell her...before it's too late but somehow finding the words is near impossible. I've been alive since the earth it's self and I find it hard to tell a young dead girl the truth. It's not that I love Scarlett...I don't love her...I need her. I'm using her. She is the last soul I have to push to heaven...so that I can go as well. But when I see her staring at Clay...longing to be with him...her eyes begging for him and his love once again it kills me and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I know the love she feels for him...I have felt that love...I still feel that love,
"Gabe? What is it?" Scarlett's lush red lips ask. I frown and turn away,
"I have to go somewhere...I'll be back later" I mutter and in a human's heartbeat I am gone from the mascaraed ball and standing on the edge of a cliff overlooking an ocean. I am shaking...my skin tingling...my eyes streaming in tears. I can not do this anymore...can not lie to her. I don't love her but I can not hurt her. Scarlett's pain is eating into me,
"You're going soft" A gentle voice mutters behind me. I ignore it and keep my gaze fixed on the raging ocean, "You should be in heaven by now" Micheal sits down beside me...his thick leather suit glistening in the faint flecks of sunlight,
"I have sent so many to heaven...but I don't think she will go" I mumble softly,
"Then we'll find you another soul" The biker grins but the smile breaks when he sees my tears, "She's different to the others isn't she?" He says softly,
"I just...she loves him so much...it should have never ended like that!" I snap,
"Now, come on Gabe. He had his reasons for taking her"
"God should have left her!" I shout and rise to me feet, "She was happy! Her mother dead, her father dead. No friends...all she had was him and He took her! How is that fare?"
"Life is not fare" Micheal is standing now forcing me to look into his night sky eyes, "Gabe...calm down...there is nothing you can do to change this"
"You want to bet?" I whisper it softly...a sentence of daring,
"That is not a road to go down" Micheal catches on in an instance, "You should be thinking of heaven...all of your work and your dreams have been to reach there once more"
"Micheal?" I say softy, "Have you ever wanted something...wanted it so bad it kills you every time you can't get it? And then one day you finally get the thing you wanted so bad...and it turns out it wasn't so much after all? What if heaven is like that? What if it is nothing really?"
"That's pretty deep Gabe" He mumbles softly,
"It's strange...because I don't even love her...I just...I just care you know?" I want him to understand,
"If you do this you'll be forever in the depths of hell!" Micheal is saying softly. But I ignore him...I know the consequences and I'm going to take them...I have to take them before it's too late. There is a way for Scarlett and Clay to be together once again...the only thing is, is that it will rip me apart in the process.
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BitterBlue - Book two of the Bitter novels -
SpirituellesI wasn't suppose to get stuck here. I can't stand it anymore. I can't watch his green eyes full of pain stare passed me, I can't watch him destroy his whole life because of his greif. I want to reach out and tell him I'm here but I don't know how. G...
