I woke up with a smile Why? Because bitch! I'll be performing with bts todayyyyyyy. Jin was spooning me. I slowly got out of his strong arm trying not to wake him up. I went to brush my teeth. I walked out to knock on Jhope door. Jhope opened the door. He blinked twice and jumped back on the bed to sleep. I ran in as I closed the door. "Today is the day," I kept saying as I sang. The guys was sleeping. I jumped on top on Jhope. "Hobiiiiii! My hope! My pure sunshine!" He looks up and smile. He grips on my thighs. "What? What do you want child," he said in his raspy sleepy voice. "Today is the day I'll be performing with you guys today today TODAYYAYAYA" I gave him kisses on the cheeks and on the neck. He laughs and tries to tickle me. I'm so ticklish. "There. Now let us sleep. It starts at 3 today," he said pushing me off of him as he rolled over to go back to sleep. "Pfff rude," I gave him a dirty look. I look over at Jimin. He was on his phone I jumped on him. He drops his phone and smiled at me. He was sideways but laid down straight. My body was on top of his junk. "You excited for meeeee?" I asked as I gave him kisses. He grips on my waist and hugs it. He pushed me down to where he is now laying on top of me, looking down at me. "Of course I am," he said giving me kisses. I laughed because of his soft lips touching me. He finally let go of me. "Lets us sleep loser. It's at 3 and it's only 10," he says as he gently pushes me off the bed. I fell on my ass. He smirks ass he snuggle back in his bed. "Why you guys pushing me off the bed?" I said. Lastly I looked at Tae. He was snuggling with his pillow. He looks like an angel. I got on top of him. "Taetae guess what?" He opens one eyes and remove the sheets under me and hugged me. He pushed me under the sheets. He spooned me "Go to sleep," he said. "Gosh Jungkook is right. Your so warm," he whispers. Jungkook talked about me to them? Does he like me or not? Will he ask me out? Can he ask me..out? Can he date? Will it affect bts? The media? I-hummm that's weird. I feel tired again. My eyes begins to slowly close. "Fine I'll sleep-some more-this is so comfortable omg," I said. I pushed my ass closer to Tae. He accepted it. His arm around my waist. We both fell asleep. Well me...I fell asleep again. It's amazing how I spoon with the guys and they don't mind. Tae leg got under mine. He kiss my neck and he finally fell asleep And for me, I did too
"What's next? We will find you sleeping in your room next?" I opened my eyes to see Namjoon Jungkook and Shimleon in the room. I turned around to see him not in bed. I get up as I rubbed my eyes. I yawned. "I was sleeping with Jin but...what time is it?" "Quarter until 2," Namjoon said. My eyes widen. "What? What are we doing here? We going to be late! What do I wear? Let's goooooo," I said. I tied my hair into a ponytail. I look at Jungkook He was staring at my boobs They were bouncing. I smirked at him. "Why don't you ever where something to cover up?" He said has he rolled his eyes and jumped on Jhope bed to sit. "Pfff it's my boobs. Girls aren't suppose to sleep with bra. Stop staring at them if you have a problem," I told him. The guys laughed. Jungkook turned red. "Let's get ready. They will give you guys the clothes when we get there," Jimin said. "For those that can't hurry up and shower, there's a shower there," Tae said. I left to go in my room. Jin was watching tv "Sorry. Tae caught me in his trap," I told him laughing. "Just woke up." "Guys said to get ready." Jin got up and went to take a shower. I decided I'll take a fresh shower when we get there. I wore leggings of Nike My white puma shoes Black long tank top shirt Wore the hat I bought from bts website. The one Suga always wear. I took my tiny bookbag and put in my shampoo to shower there. We all walked out and got in the car. I sat beside Jin. We got there after an hour and a half in the car. We blasted music and sang like we were in a karaoke room. We finally got there. It was a big stadium. The stage was huge the place was huge I'm so proud of the guys coming this far and they still have this path they will reach even farther. "There's a shower in our dressing room," Tae said. All of the guys walked in to their dressing room. They gave a towel and I took my things to take a shower. After I was done, I wrapped my body with the towel. The other towel I wrapped it on my hair so it can dry. I walked out to see the guys still there. "Waiting for me to get naked?" I said laughing. "Here is the clothes you're going to wear. We will be outside if you need anything," Jhope told me as he handed the clothes. They all walked out as I closed the door. "There's no camera right?" "Pfff like you have anything to show," Jungkook said being last one walking out. "Oh no it's okay. It's not like your ever going to have this anyway," I told him smiling. He turns around. "I-" I slammed the door on him. Two points for me, zero for him. I put the clothes I was wearing back on. I put some oil on my hair to make it shine and smell good and for it not to be puffy. I brushed my hair. It's straight since it's wet but once it's dried, it's all wavy. I left my bookbag in there and walked out with my phone. Since the boys wasn't there, I didn't know where to go. I called Jimin. "Where you guys at?" "Stay there I'll get you," It didn't take long. He smiled and grabbed my hand as he lead me to the stage. All of the guys was there and their dancers too. "Let's practice with Shimleon first," Jin said. Shimleon got in position. I didn't see Jungkook there. I turned around to see a big stereo like the concerts always use, behind me. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around and it was Jungkook. "Why aren't you practicing with them?" "I'll go up there when you do," he told me as he gently push me back closer the stereo. "What you doing?" "Pay attention." They played the song. I felt a vibration coming underneath my feet. I closed my eyes and bit my lip. "Jungkook let me go-" "Your so sensitive to any kind of vibration. Do you even use a vibrator? I.want.you.to.cum. You lost your chance in the car, I won't let that happen again," he whispered I looked up at him with my wide eyes. He looked back at with a sexy but evil smirk. My eyes couldn't stay open and be looking at him because my eyes rolled over. I gasped and opened my mouth. I tired to get loose from his grip and I did. I tried to run away from him but he caught me again "Your not leaving," he said with a sinister laugh. He pushed me against the stereo. The vibration was even worse. I moan loudly. I covered my mouth with my hand. "Ju-stop please I can't-" "Almost there aren't you?" I was I really was and I can't take it because if felt just too good. I turned around where we are facing each other now. He looked down at me and pressed his body onto mine. The vibration made me go crazy. "Your legs are shaking....your almost there sweetie," he whispered in my ear. I couldn't take it no more. My legs was shaking and I clenched them together to hold it in but couldn't. I placed both of my arms around his neck. It was coming. My eyes opened wide as I moan out of satisfaction in Jungkook ear. He pressed my body onto him and he rub his buldge onto me. "Stop I cum-I can't go to second round-" I said out of breath. The music stopped. My legs was still shaking. I was out of breath. I looked up to see Jungkook biting his lip with a smirk. He let go of me. "It's pathetic to see you how easily you cum. You have no idea what your missing," he said laughing. He put both of his hands in his pocket and laughed as he bend back over a little. "You-" I couldn't say anything to him. I was too wet to even walk. "I hope you paid attention. Go and practice with Jungkook," Suga said out of breath. He looked at me strange "Why you out of breath and your legs are shaking?" He asked looking at me from top and bottom. "Just nervous......Can you show me the bathroom?" I asked in a high pitch voice. Suga looked at Jungkook and back at me. He grabbed my hand and took me to the bathroom. "I'll wait outside so you don't have to get lost," he said leaning on the wall. I smiled at him and hurried to open the door when he grabbed my wrist. "These past few days...Jungkook mention things about this person...he never said who but ...you guys a thing?" He asked seriously. I eyed him. "Really? Maybe he just crushing..." "No see the thing is...he shy with girls but with you...never mind. Go use the bathroom," he said smiling. I smiled back and rushed in the stall. I sat down on the toilet and grabbed toilet paper. Oh wow...I never been this wet in my life wtf... My legs are steady now. I peed and wipe myself and went to wash my hands. I didn't know my hands were shaking. I air dried my hands and walked out. We both walked back to the stage. Jungkook and the dancers was in position. Suga played the song as I got in my position. I danced. I tripped. Got back up and continued. Fell again. "Y/N get it together," Suga yelled. Jungkook turned his head to look at me. He gave me that sinister sexy smile again I mouthed *fuck you* to him We danced the whole song. Everyone was out of breath. "What was that?" I turned around to see Jimin walking to me. "I got a cramp on my leg but I promise I'll actually do good when the concert starts," I told him between breath. Jin threw me a water bottle and I caught it and drink it all. I sat down in the middle of the stage. Still catching my breath, I looked at the empty space that will be filled up. It made me smile. I'm just so- "How much did you cum?" I look up to see Jungkook siting beside me. "Fuck you." "Not yet," he said laughing. I looked at him. His laugh stopped. "I'm not a tot for you to play with. Is this what you do with all of the girls? Huh??!! Stop playing with my emotions. I'm not a game," I told him angrily. I pushed myself to get up but his hand was on my wrist. "What the fuck? What did I do? Your serious right now," he said angrily too. I yanked off of his grip. He looked down and jumped. I eyed him and walked away. I walked to Jin and sat beside him. "Concert starts in an hour. You nervous," he asked tickling me. I laughed and hugged him. "No because I'll be on stage with you guys," I told him poking his nose. I looked over at Jungkook. He was standing there looking at me and Jin. His tongue poked out of his cheeks. He put his hands on his waist and mouthed *bullshit*. He walked towards where I was, looking down. He walked past me. I'm guessing he is going to the dressing room. Fuck it! I regret what I did but...is he playing with me? Does he do the same with the other girls? Does he talk LIEK that with other girls? Fuck you I hate you right so much A reminder to myself...I hate you:) The situation pissed me off so much. Jhope walked to me "Get up. We have noodles in the dressing room and everyone is there," he told me reaching out for my hand to pull me up. Jin walked with us. Everyone was in there eating noodles I looked at Jungkook but he wasn't looking back at me. I sat down and Jhope gave me my noodle. I picked up my chopstick and began eating. We were all talking and laughing. The guys told me embarrassing things that happened to them during performance. Everyone was laughing and smiling and enjoying the moment. Jungkook wasn't. He finished the noodles before anyone did. He ran his fingers through his hair and I saw his forehead. Gosh I miss his forehead. "Jungkook, why aren't you talking?" Asked Suga. "He on his period," I said. We all laughed. Jungkook looked up at me with a mad look. My laugh choked on itself. "Oh that's how a period looks like? No wonder your being a bitch today," he said as he got up and walked out slamming the door. Everyone was quite. "I'm so sorry-" "Don't be sorry for someone action when you didn't do anything," I told Jimin. I continued to eat my noodle. They guys try to light up the mood but Jungkook left a dark cloud behind for us. We all finished our noodles. It was time. I changed out to the clothes that me and Shimleon is going to wear same as the dancers. The outfit was all in black. Just like from the video (bts not today M countdown) (They were wearing clothes from that video so yeah, im not gunna describe what each of them are wearing) I wore it. I met up with the guys backstage. The stadium was packed all ready. The fans was shouting and chanting bts. "Ahhhh I'm so squishy right now," I said. "Your so cute," Namjoon said squeezing my cheeks. The guys was standing on this platform where it will rise up to the stage. I thought that was so cool whenever they use that method as an opening. The stage was dark so no one could see me or the dancers getting in position on stage. The guys rise from underneath and the lights was focused on them. Everyone was screaming. "Hellllllooo Stockholm," Yelled Namjoon. Everyone yelled. "Everyone ready for a good time?" Said Jungkook. The music started. Namjoon sang his part as I danced along with the dancers. My heart was racing. I don't think people will notice me. Suga part came on. (Imagine the stage as like an live not today video ighhttt) I sang with the guys. I danced with everything I had. Suga peeped at me to give me thumbs up. I smiled back at him. Focusing on my dancing. I noticed it was Jungkook part. The had big screens so people in the back could watch. I looked at the camera focus and I see Jungkook reaching out his hand for this fan and winked at her. The fan was crying and blowing kisses to him. Pfff I don't give a fuck. We aren't dating. But...that pissed me off. Remember the time where Jungkook was dancing but he was so angry and annoyed at the same time? Bless that fancam but I look like that right now. I'm mad and annoyed but I know the cameraman won't put the camera on me. I rolled my eyes and bit my lip to the fact that...I guess me and Jungkook having our first fight. Ignoring everything, my favorite part came on Where they stomp and do this-
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The song finished and everyone was out of breath. Me and the dancers walked out of the stage so the guys could do more songs. I went to the dressing room to clean up. I took off the clothes and put on my clothes I came with. Fuck I don't have a pair of panties with me. I took off my wet panties. I hide it with the towel I used so it can dry. "Wow I have so much energy right now. We did so good," Shimleon said coming in the room and giving me a high five. "Yeah. I can't wait to do it again," I lied. We both chilled and talked the rest of the day until the guys finished. It was 6pm. The guys came in out of breath and all sweaty. "You guys did good for the first performance," Jhope said smiling. "Look at you guys. Did amazing like always," I said getting up and poking him playfully. "Let's go back to the hotel and wash up so we can order food," Jin said. We packed our things. The guys walked out but I turned around to see the stage once more. It's empty again but....it'll be filled again. I smiled as I catch up with the guys. We got in the same car. I sat beside Jungkook. His body was all sweaty which I found so hot as always. He didn't even glanced at me. He looked out the window ignoring me. I'm siting in the back with him as everyone was in the front. His hands was on his lap. I intertwined my fingers with his He looked down and yanked his hand off. The sound it made when he yanked it off made me speechless. I closed my hand into a fist. I moved away from him to where I couldn't move anymore. I looked out the window, silently wiping my tears away. What have I done?
