2MOONS fanfic

.......can't even look at you because

#Beam POV

forth left me there standing alone I stayed there for couples of a minute and then went out Phana and wayo were waiting outside.

 it

looks like they are waiting for me but they were afraid of me. when pha saw me he took Yo behind his back 

it's like he took my threat seriously will he should I go to pha 

"I had to do that beam you understand that right "

"If you ever did that again you are not my friend "

I walked past them without saying anything else. I went to my room in the dorm cuz now I know forth won't be there finally I can sleep peacefully I have been homeless a few weeks cuz of him  I  slept in phana room and a few other friends but he always know where I'm staying so I went outside the campus and I stayed with my cousin and her husband  

But even tho I'm in my room now but I can't sleep I keep thinking about that night the night that started all this 

I was so drunk I drink like it's my last day alive I was confused because I thought I was in love with Kit I couldn't explain why I was mad that kit was falling for ming but at the same time I was the one who helped him in the  first place It took me a while till I realized I was feeling the same thing about phana I was just scared from  being left alone and since Kit is my best friend It was really hard to accept that he going to have someone who cares about him more than me 

But I didn't know all this that time so I drink a lot with forth and our other drinking friends 

I talked to forth about what was bothering me like I always do, I don't know why but I tell him everything when we drink together 

  I woke up in some room and forth was trying to put me to bed I wanted to drink more but he won't let me go 

" are doing all this cuz you are in love with kit ?"

I was so shocked I didn't remember telling him cuz I was so drunk so I felt ashamed and I denied it 

"No I'm not in love with kit I'm not in love with anyone "

forth didn't say anything and only smiled  but I felt like he was making fun of me  so drunk me got really mad and childish 

"I told you I'm not in love with anyone don't you believe me "

he only looked at my eyes and didn't say anything 

"Do me "

I said without thinking and I watched forth panic expiration 

"what did you say "

"You heard me the first time to prove to you That I don't like anyone I will sleep with you let's have one night stand "

forth looked at me like I was crazy and maybe he is right maybe I really become crazy but I didn't change my words or back from it 

"you are crazy I won't sleep with you "

"Why I know you swing both ways so what the problem Am I not attractive enough for you "

"oh no you are very attractive but also very drunk so no "

"I could do a great performance even when I'm drunk I can tell you that for sure "

forth didn't say anything so I pull him to me our faces were inches apart I was lying on the bed and he was standing beside me If I move just a little I could kiss him