Wounded || HopeKook/JungHope ||

Chapter 20

Jungkook's POV

I was still shuddering at the after thoughts of watching the videos. The first ones were light, they basically explained everything to me, the growth of the baby, the difficulties i would face etc. Then i started a video on abortion, something i regret doing. The whole video left me with to many thoughts. Could i really do this? I know that many people had different ways to look at it but all i could think of was as if i was going to kill someone.

Even though, it was not even born yet, i could not shake off the thought. The only way i could look at it was as murder. The baby may have been there against my will, i may have neglected it but i can not think of killing it. I don't even think i hate it anymore. As much as hard it is to admit this, it brought many precious things in my life. All the events that took place a month ago, made me meet Hoseok hyung, someone i value a lot.

I had not noticed the few tears i had shed until i felt them trail down my chin. I quickly wiped them away, knowing that if hyung finds out he will probably freak out. I smiled imagining his reaction. I don't know why but he always made me feel different than others, in a good way obviously. As much as cheesy it sounds, every time we initiated any kind of contact, i could feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach. At times i could feel my heart about to burst out of my rib cage.

Also, whenever he would show his caring side, i can feel this warm fluttery feeling spread through my chest. It was weird in a way. I had had a few relationships but neither of them gave me such intense feelings. I am not sure if i am ready to even accept these feelings? Was i really ready to like someone, to move on?

My train of thoughts was interrupted when i heard my phone ring. I looked at the caller ID, it was Hoseok hyung. I cleared my throat, "Hey hyung? Where are you?" i answered the call, "Hey Jungkook." I could tell he was smiling. "I just reached the parking lot right now, do you want me to come to your apartment or are you comfortable with coming to mine?" he asked. Come to think of it, i still hadn't seen hyung's apartment, "I will come hyung, don't worry." i said, and he ended the call with a small see you.

I changed from my tracksuit trouser into sweatpants, and put a sweater on top of my shirt, and made my way to his apartment, locking mine at on the way. I took the key from under the mat in front of door, hyung had told about, and opened the door. "Hyung!" i called out for him. "Kitchen!" he answered telling me where he was. As i was looking for the kitchen i observed his apartment. It wasn't tidy neither was it dirty. There was no dust but you could art supplies here nd there. As soon as i reached the kitchen i launched myself on him. "Woah, woah what happened?" He said chuckling as he wrapped his arms around me.

"I hate you." i mumbled in his chest. "Huh?" he questioned, not getting what i just said. "I hate you. You got me so used to having you around, i felt so lonely today." I said loud enough for him to hear, cheeks heating up because of my statement. His chest vibrated as he laughed. "Well, Jungkook i missed you too." he said laughing again. I stuck out my tongue at him.

We moved on to eating, but i just kept on spacing out. Just when i was lost in my thoughts again, hyung flicked my forehead, "Oww!!" i rubbed the now red spot on my forehead, "What is wrong with you? You keep spacing out today. Is something bothering you? Is the food not good?" he asked. "No i am fine. The food is good too. Its just. Nothing, no i am completely fine." i flashed him one of my bunny teeth smiles, to make him believe me. But it didn't work.

A frown settled on his face, "Finish your food first, then i will talk to you." I nodded my head not knowing anything else to do. We finished and then moved on to washing the dishes. There was complete silence between us,as hyung washed the plates and i dried them. "Go to the living room, put on something to watch i will join you." he said before smiling at me after what felt like forever.

I did what i was told, and waited for hyung to come. "Here." he came after a while handed me a steaming cup. "Care to explain that what is bothering you." he asked as he settled down on the couch next to me. "Did you make that?" i pointed at a random painting. "Jeon Jungkook, don't try to change the subject here." his voice sending chills down my spine.

Knowing that there was no way out, i just decided to tell him, "So since i had a lot of free time today, i watched those videos the health counselor had given me. There was this one video for abortion. Hyung, it was so scary to watch like seriously, i was getting scared. How could people even do it? I don't know it feels like murder to me, how can you just kill it off? It is just so so sick."

I felt hyung hug me and i nestled my face in his chest. "What am i supposed to do hyung? I can't kill it off like that, no. But i can't even give it up for adoption either, i have grown too attached to dotty, by now." i sniffled. "You know, you could've told this to me earlier. I knew we were going to talk about this one day. The choice lies for you Jungkook. What do YOU want?

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HEY !! HOW ARE YOU ALL AFTER BIG HIT'S ATTACKS ON US FOR THE PAST DAYS? HAHAHAH, did you guys see the highlight reel yet? It is very emotional i have to say, also idk why but i feel really happy to see them acting with women. idk i just am. So, did you guys like the chapter? If you did please vote and leave me some comments. They help me write a lot. Thank you! I hope you enjoyed! Love you all!!!