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"Follow that, imbecile"
(AN: My apologies, I've been contemplating how to write this since it bring me bad memories and it was hard writing this. I know this is a major drop in mood but I've given hints in Castiel's chapter. Sorry...)
Trigger warning: Suicide
Weeks rolled around, Castiel hadn't broken his somber mood. His mother now forces him to go to his psychiatrist two times a week, Monday and Thursday. So now he doesn't have time to break out of his mortified state.
It was not going good, but 'not good' went to 'absolute shit' when Castiel called Dean at 12 am saying two sentences then hanging up.
"Dean? I'm so sorry, I just want you to know I tried. But I'm afraid I can't refrain from killing myself"
Dean sat in horror for a few moments then grabbed his shoes, redialing Cas' number. To no avail.
Counselors said before to call 911, So Dean quickly dialed the number, now knocking on the Novak's house door furiously, ringing the door bell in complete utter panic.
"911 what's your emergency?"
"My friend is trying to kill himself!"
A disgruntled Gabriel answer the door with a barked "What" Dean pushed passed him and almost broke the door room to Cas' bedroom, Gabriel following behind.
Dean in his jumbled thought shouted a few words that resembled "Cas" "Suicide!" "Find him" Gabriel froze and started yelling for the Novaks to "wake the fuck up"
Mr and Mrs Novak had stumbled out with Mr Novak's gun in hand, Gabriel pointed towards the bathroom door and Lucifer shouted for everyone to freeze.
"Why the fuck are all of you yelling?" Gabriel pointed at Dean who ended the conversation with the operator and rubbed his eyes.
"Castiel called me and told me he's going to-He...He said he'll kill himself" Silence and then wails, in chaos Gabriel had broken down the bathroom door and found Castiel huddled in the bathtub. "EVERYONE HELP ME RIGHT THE FUCK NOW"
This is how the week started for the Novak's and Dean.
"LEFT, ITS LEFT YOU FUCKING MORON" Gabriel shouted as Lucifer took a surprise U-turn and turned into the right direction. Anna and Mrs Novak held Castiel's head as they tried to keep Castiel awake for as long as this ride takes.
"Hey, Focus on me. Come on, eyes open" Mrs Novak instructed, Castiel glazed over her and his gaze fell on the ceiling. His eyes were glossed over, hazy in a way.
Dean held his finger's to Castiel's wrist, Feeling the heartbeat under the tips of his fingers. Anna kept sure that Castiel doesn't choke on his own spit.
"Lucifer I SWEAR TO GOD YOU ARE A DEAF IDIOT. I SAID TAKE THAT TURN, WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID" Anna grabbed her phone out and set a GPS, climbing to the front and setting it on the dashboard.
"Follow that, imbecile" Mrs Novak lightly shook Castiel, Making him let out a groan, followed by a gargle.
"Lucifer drive faster"
"Two minutes, Mom!"
Dean closed his eyes and counted to sixty, Castiel will be fine. He's fine, he'll be okay, he'll be awake in a few hours. They'll make it.
Ten
Castiel choked on his gasp, his arm spasming and falling on his chest. His pupils widened even more, leaving a sliver of his blue irises (Which looked grey now). Mrs Novak hoisted him to her shoulder and held him.
Thirty
Anna worryingly placed a hand over his nose to sense if he's still breathing. "Lucifer, Drive faster"
Forty
"Anna," Dean started but Castiel's choke followed by his hand scratching the seat stopped him.
Fifty
"His lung is being filled with blood. He's choking from inside" Anna said, Dean quickly looked up and saw the hospital nearing.
Sixty
"Park there, it's nearer. NEARER LUCIFER" The Novaks quickly stepped out, the Car behind them (Containing Mr Novak, Michael, Hannah and Samandrial) stopped. Mrs Novak held Castiel by his hand on one side while Lucifer held the other. Dean and Gabriel carried his legs as they all ran to the entrance, Nurses with a hospital bed greeted them and took Castiel out of their hands.
Dean stood in the bathroom with his hands under the water, he'd just ended a phone call with his parents telling them about his sudden disappearance.
In the mess of transporting Cas, he'd managed to store his sadness and shock away behind his fear and panic. He felt tears well up behind his eyes as he thought about losing Castiel, Dean couldn't help but blame for not seeing the possibility. He'd talked to him about being down, Cas literally told him he has depression. Sure depression doesn't equal suicide but still, Dean should've been more careful.
"Stupid" he whispered, wiping a hand over his face. He looked into the mirror in front of him and sniffled "You are so stupid" with a sigh Dean walked out to where the Novak's paced. Now he just needs to wait.
