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"Nobody Can save me now."
(NOT EDITED OR REVISED)
The Novaks had all slept in the waiting room, No word from the doctors except that they figured he took too many pills and that caused his lungs to collapse or something of that sort.
John and Mary had visited once they got the news, Sam and Adam had been in school at the time. Dean skipped of course and the Novaks had taken him under their wings and told the reception that he's a family member.
After twelve hours of excruciating worry and tears, the family had a visit from the doctor. "He's stable, we pumped his stomach and he should be fine. But I'd advise to keep an eye on him at all times" And then they were lead to his room, Where Castiel was sitting up. Looking pale and hopeless he waved and was immediately bombarded with questions.
"What were you thinking!"
"Why would you do that!"
"Do you know how much I cried?"
"This mascara isn't for free!"
"We were so damn worried!"
Castiel looked down and rubbed over his needled arm, Dean placed a hand over Castiel's ankle making Castiel look up. "Guys, yelling isn't a good option right now" he suggested, making Castiel nod in thankfulness.
They all settled around Castiel, who was having his hemoglobin levels tempered with by a nurse. "Why?" Gabriel asked again, and Castiel sighed.
"Unimportant" Castiel mumbled, smoothing down his hair and looking down to his hospital bed. Lucifer let out a literal growl and quickly jumped to his words "unimportant my testicles, You trying to speed up death isn't unimportant, air quoted, because whether you like it or not: You matter"
Anna quickly followed up with her own quota "And we can't handle loosening you, because whether you know it or not: we love you" Mrs Novak nodded, taking Castiel's hand and rubbing over the back of his hand.
"And we'll always help you, because whether you want it or not because: We care about you" Castiel nodded in response, sagging against his bed and looking to Gabriel.
"I'm sorry," he started, giving apologetic eyes to Gabriel then turning to his mother "Can I please not go to my therapist? She hates me, I can tell" Mrs Novak quickly nodded and leaned back on the uncomfortable chair.
"She, uh, she got arrested for sexual harassment yesterday. And she was...undocumented" Mrs Novak looked down with a guilty expression.
Dean quickly looked at Castiel's reaction, they talked about this possibility in the forest clearing, he was right. "I fucking knew it!" Castiel cheered, looking at Dean with a playful grin "I told you that Bitch was probably not a real doctor. No hag like that could get as far as graduating college!" He congratulated himself as Gabriel snickered at Cas' happy dance.
Lucifer side glanced at his mother then rolled his eyes "language" he mocked, Mrs Novak smiled and flicked Lucifer's forehead.
"Would you like another therapist?" Mrs Novaks asked, all the Novaks
Castiel shrugged, "I'll think about it"
Few hours after the Novaks perished, Gabriel Michael and the rest of the brothers and sisters went to get food while Mr and Mrs Novak went to discuss money and insurance with the receptionist. Dean was left alone with Castiel, who had taken shelter in writing on the hospital notepad. Dean tapped his feet trying to find words to say that would be fitting, Castiel momentarily looked up then sighed, taking one of dean's hands and kissing the back of it. Dean scooted his chair closer and rested his head on Cas' lap, closing his eyes and relaxing; letting yesterday's worry fade. Castiel played with the ungelled software hairs at the base of Dean's neck and hummed the melody to 'Fade to black' by metallica.
"I'm sorry, Dean" Dean groaned into Castiel's lap and sighed, turning to face Castiel and placed a small kiss to the base of Cas' stomach. He smiled down at Dean who closed his eyes again and brought his other hand to rest above Cas'.
"It's okay, I'm happy you're still alive" Dean mumbled, feeling Castiel's soft strokes against his hair freeze then restart again. He opened his eyes again and saw Castiel leaning against his pillow, smiling softly with his eyes closed.
"Me too, Dean"
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I'm sorry for the very bad chapter, I'm very sad and down right now. I feel very off and had to talk myself out of suicide twice, though I know ill never actually have the guts to do it. I almost opened the door to my mother's speeding Car and then had to talk myself out of jumping off my roof. Idk what's happening but I feel very bad, majorly bad and I don't have medicine to take and I'm very stressed I don't understand what's happening.
