After The Sunset

11:52 pm

theres this one time where i read some love quotes on tumblr that this one guy doesnt believe in death do us part. because he said, death shouldnt be the reason you stop loving someone. since then, i never believe in wedding vows where the preacher said till death do us part.

i have a complicated yet simple family. father's never home and mother have to work  her ass off for my brother and i. for the clothes that we wore, for the food that we ate, for the bed that we sometimes took for grandted because we live in society where we thought that its normal for everybody to have their own bed, for our roof, and for our school tuition that is extremly expensive. she's an amazing woman and i am forever thankful for everything.

but you see, when you grow up with a single parent, you dont have a role model for your future marriage. which make you dont believe in marriage because what's the point of it? people divorce all the time. fathers or mothers walk away form their children and partner all the time. it makes you think, does it really worth it? the pain? the scar? the wound that will never heal because of heartbreaks and broken trusts?

but yet here i am writing my own vows that i dont know if i will ever read this or not, heck, i dont even know if i will get married or not. but if i do, then i know for a fact that he's worth it. you, my soon to be husband, you're worth everything because if i'm reading this for you, it means i will forever be loyal and forever love you. i'll respect and commit to you. it also means that you worth the pain that will soon come because i know there will be a lot of ups and downs. but i will give you nothing but the best from me and our children. and the moment i will love another man in my life, its when i first saw our son. and i'll love you, not until death do us part, but until us do us part.

- my wedding vows