After The Sunset

03:04 am

I've been having the same dream for three days straight.

I've been having anxiety to close my eyes because i know at thr other side,

I'm going to lose the battle.

and I've been losing,

for three days straight.

It started like this,

I saw myself.

I saw myself sleeping,

I saw how i was tossing and turning

I saw how even in my dream,

I am at peace.

I was alone.

and it was cold,

no amount of blankets can warm me up.

I was shivering.

but then I turn around,

and I'm seeing colors,

you were there.

at the edge of the bed,

you almost fell.

but i hugged you.

i hugged you really thight

as i bury my heads into your hair,

loving how you smell.

loving how warm you feel,

loving how it was just me and you.

it didn't last that long.

you were slipping away from me.

you were drifting away,

I was grasping for you,

I was longing to touch you again,

I missed how much warmth you're giving me just seconds ago.

now it's really, really cold.

I tried to get up so I could run for you,

but you're walking away,

It does not matter how fast I ran,

you're still so far away for me.

so close,

yet so far.

but I don't want to give up.

so I ran,

and ran,

and ran,

- then I woke up