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Question (Prinxiety)

This was requested by Madelyn_Sanders!

TW: This chapter revolves around an anxiety attack!! This chapter is going to be angsty but with a happy ending.

Anxiety's POV

Today wasn't a good day. There was no particular reason why it was a bad day, but when I woke up I felt groggy. I didn't have the energy to get out of bed, the air in my room felt heavy, and I was uncomfortably warm, no matter how many blankets I kicked to the floor. I didn't even feel the want or need of grabbing my phone to entertain myself. I was just laying here, staring up at the ceiling, unblinking.

I laid like that for a while, growing more uncomfortable as each second passed without moving, or blinking, but it was like I was in a weird trance. I was uncomfortable, but I didn't want to move. I instead just dealt with the discomfort.

I was finally broken out of my trance when my stomach growled loudly for the twentieth time. I blinked, my eyes watering from staying open so long. My muscles ached from being in the same position all day. But I had finally found it in me to get out of bed for the first time today.

I slowly made my way out of the dark, uncomfortable room, making my way to the brightly lit kitchen. I walked in, spotting Logan sitting in one of the chairs, reading and eating an apple. I presumed Princey, and Morality were in the commons room. At the sound of the fridge door opening, Logan turned around, putting down his book. 

"Oh, I see you've finally joined up today." Logan sounded monotone like usual. I just nodded in response. "You know, the others and I would appreciate if you actually came out of your room once in a while to actually do your job of keeping Thomas safe." Logan said this, and I felt the bit of energy I had drain out of my body. I was so exhausted. I sighed in response. Logan was the only trait here yet to warm up to me. Morality made an effort, and Prince had stopped being so hostile, he even smiled at me on occasion.

Logan, however, hadn't yet determined if he wanted me around or not. He didn't mean to be hurtful, but he also wasn't good at sugar coating. He was brutally honest. "We all had to take over your job today because of your absence. Frankly, I don't see why you are so necessary when we handled your position just fine today." He shrugged. My breath hitched at this. I knew if I didn't leave soon I would start to panic, then he would just have more things to ridicule me about.

I turned away from the fridge, food completely abandoned on the counter. I started making my way to the door of the kitchen when Logan's voice stopped me in my tracks. "You're useless in my books." I could feel the tightening in my chest, and the sting of my eyes, warning me tears were on there way. I had to leave. Now. But once again before I could, Logan finished off his thought. "I don't see the point in your existence." This didn't sound like it was directed towards me, almost like it was an after thought. It still hit me full force though.

Then it happened, I was crying and I couldn't stop. It wasn't just tears down my face, it was full ugly sobs. I ran out of the kitchen, through the commons area, and back to my room. It now seemed more suffocating than before. I willed my eyes to stop producing tears, and my throat to stop making noise and to let me breath. But as hard as I tried, it had no affect. That's when I heard the yelling, though I couldn't make out the words over my ugly sobs. The yelling stopped and then I heard the knocking.

You're worthless

They'll see you for what you are

They'll think your weak

You are weak

Pathetic

You don't deserve to exist