Logan’s P.O.V
I open the door to my room and throw myself on it. The thoughts of what just happened are still on my mind. I stare at my white ceiling as I try to flashback.
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Selena cried for hours. The only thing I did was patting her head, and hugged her. She buried her face in my chest the whole time, her cry getting more painful each minute. After crying for such a long time finally Selena pulled back from me. She wiped the tears on her cheeks with her hands, and then looked at me in the eye.
“Thank you, Logan,” she said softly.
I let out a faint smile. “It’s really late, we need to get you home.”
She nodded and I drove. Just when we reached the Gold Bridge Ave. she told me the directions to her house and I followed her instructions. After a few lefts and rights we got to her house and I stopped the car. Selena walked out of the car and was about to close the door when she hesitated for awhile.
“What Sel?” I asked her.
She got back into the car and closed the door. I got really confused but then she said something. No, more like told me something.
“I know that Justin doesn’t only see me. Sometimes I see him texting Emma secretly,” she started.
I was about to say something like “then why the hell are you still with him?!” but I guess it was all written in my face since she cut me off.
“I love him so much. It really hurts me seeing him texting other girls than me, and I feel like getting mad at him. But if I do, I’m afraid of losing him. He has Emma, so if I be an annoying girlfriend he’ll probably leave me right?” she asked, which for me, was more like saying.
“I know this day will happen. And I know that I should move on and realize that he’s a jerk that ruins my life. I know that. But I can’t. I just love him so much. I keep on reassuring myself whenever I feel like- like today,” she tried not to let the tears fall down.
“I tell myself things like ‘at least he chooses to be with you in public’ or ‘he loves you and he’s just playing around with Emma’ but I guess they don’t work anymore. I prepared myself for this, but I didn’t expect it to be this painful,” she continued. She finally couldn’t hold the tears anymore, each drop falling onto her jeans.
“I’m sorry,” I said to her, then I tried to reach her. “Come here.”
I hugged her and she hugged me back, real tight. She buried her face again in my chest. My head was above hers. My hand was stroking her hair and the other was holding her back.
“I tried cutting.”
I stopped stroking her hair for awhile. She probably noticed that as she broke the hug and looked at my face. To my surprise, she smiled.
“Until I met you,” she finally said. “You’re so kind and funny-“she paused, “and cheesy,” and then she laughed. I smiled back, not because of what she said but mostly because she laughed.
“And also I heard that you’ve been watching me since like wizards and that kinda make you one of my fans and I love my fans so much. When I cut myself I was so blinded by the ugly thoughts that none of the good ones were on my mind. But then you reminded me of the good things, the jokes, the laughs, fans-“ suddenly she hugged me so tight.
“Thank you!” She grinned. “I guess I’ve let it all out,” she looked in my eyes, “I’m glad I have you on my side, Logan.”
“Best friends forever?” She held her pinky finger out.
I gave her the confused face, continued by saying “really Sel?”
She laughed again and said, “Come on Logan! Don’t judge your own friend.”
I laughed and we promised on our pinky fingers.
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I smile as the flashback fades away. She’s such a strong person. So that’s why she said the suicide thing suit her the most. She was such in a miserable state, yet no one knows about it. She was fighting alone. And I never know that I play an important role to her. I mean I thought I was just another flirty guy but then she actually sees me as the person closest to her. I’m sure my smile is getting wider and wider.
Suddenly my phone beeps and I quickly check who is it. It’s Selena.
S: goodnight Loggy!
What? Loggy? Seriously? WHAT KIND OF SHITTY NICKNAME IS THAT.
L: Loggy? Really Sel?
After a few minutes she replies back.
S: Come on! It’s cute! Plus it suits you really well
She’s so funny I smile. No, I actually laugh. I never know texting someone you love can be this fun.
L: no
S: Aw Loggy is mad now
L: gosh can you stop calling me that
S: noooo Loggy is too cute
L: ugh fine. Goodnight Sel
S: goodnight Loggy!
I put my phone beside me. I’M SO HAPPY I CAN DIE RIGHT THIS SECOND. I hop up and put my ipod on shuffle. ‘Happy’ by Pharrell is played. THIS IS SO ME RIGHT NOW. I dance to the song and sing out loud and jump around and I can hear my mom saying something like ‘Logan what are you doing go to sleep’ BUT WHO CARES I’M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW.
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Starstrucked (Lolena Fanfic)
Romance"I think the suicide part suits me the most," Logan has always had a crush on Selena, and he's about to meet her and work in the same movie. But does Selena turn out to be the same person he expected her to be?
