Starstrucked (Lolena Fanfic)

Chapter 9

Logan's P.O.V.

I can feel my heart beats faster and louder than before. I can only hope that Selena doesn't hear it. I don't say a word, instead I hold her hand back, our fingers interlocking with each other's now. I don't look at her either, I can't. I really want to see her expression tho, is she embarassed? Or does she think that this is just a normal holding hands, nothing more nothing less?

I decide to turn and look at her. She looks..... happy. Now I can't tell what's the meaning of this. My brain keeps on wondering but I still don't understand. Finally I decide to find out. "Selena?"

She turns her face to see mine. "Hm?" Her face looks really happy she even grinned. I want to ask her but what should I say? God I just don't know. "Oh!" Selena exclaimed suddenly. I think she realizes. She quickly takes her hand away, her face as red as a tomato. "I-I'm sorry I-I didn't mean to- I just-"

"I usually hold hands with Charity, I'm sorry I don't-" she looks down, her face still blushing. I don't know but I find this really cute. "You thought I was Charity," I conclude.

"No!" She snaps quickly, "no no it's not that, it's just um- she's my friend and I really trust her and I feel comfortable when she's around and you know you're my friend too so um-"

Ah so that's it. What the hell was I thinking. "I got it," I say, "thanks." I smile to her. She looks confused. "For thinking of me as one of those friends," I stop for awhile, "and I really don't mind the holding hand thing, it's just that we're all the media is talking about and you know, the holding hand thing will just makes things worse, don't you think?"

She looks down and stares at the plain floor. "You're right," she says, "sorry." Oh crap. I don't mean to blame her. "Sel I'm not blaming you okay, I'm just reminding you." Plus actually I like it when we hold hands, that's why I held your hand back, but we just can't. Not now.

"I know," she says softly, still looking down. "Hey hey heey, don't be sad," I try to cheer her up, "we're still friends, it's just that we can't do things like hold hands or hug or you know- things that make people think differently."

"I know Loggy, I'm not that dumb," she turns to look at me, her face a little pissed. But I know she doesn't mean it, since she laughs after that. I like her laugh so much. It makes me laugh too, unintentionally.

We keep on talking until we reach the shooting area. As soon as the director see us he quickly calls Selena out. Selena looks at me once before she leaves to do the scene. "See you later," she waves her hand as she heads to the director.

I sit on a random chair and watch Selena do her scene. A familiar sound surpise me then, making me flinch a little before realizing who it is. "Quite close with the Bieber girl huh?"

I refuse to turn my head but my body isn't cooperating. I turn my head to see Alex standing with her hands folded. Why. Should. She. Be. Here. Like the country is so big and wide and there are lots of places beside here SO WHY IS SHE HERE??? I feel really annoyed and I'm not afraid to let it show. I mean I would really love to show her that I'm annoyed that she's around.

"First she has a name, second why should you care about my fucking life?" I say, a little shouting. "In case you're gonna say it's because you're my girlfriend, don't forget the fucking EX."

"This is why I hate that girl," she says, looking at Selena from the distance. "She changes you into this rude boy you are now."

"Oh you should be thankful I am this rude," I turn my head to look at her and smile a little. "I can be much worse, trust me."

My last sentence makes her pissed enough to finally look at me and rises her voice. "Just what's wrong with you Logan?"

"What's wrong with me? No, no- It's what's wrong with YOU?!" I ask back. There's nothing wrong with me, it's her. She should have gotten over me, it's not my fault that she hasn't. Plus, it's not my fault that she cheated. And it's not my fault that we broke up. It's hers.

"Why are you so into that girl?" she points on Selena. Selena doesn't seem to notice it. "What's so good about her? She's nothing but a famewhore, she only dates people whose famous enough to make her more famous than she already is. And one of those famous people, is you, Logan."

"She's not a famewhore," I say, my voice steady and sharp. You are, Alex, you are. That's probably why you wanted to be with me, but when you knew that I wanted to keep it a secret, which was unexpected for you, you cheated on me. You're the famewhore, Alex.

"Oh really? What is she then?"

"A woman, a very innocent woman," I say as I clench my hand into a fist, trying to keep that anger to myself.

"Oh, Logan," she sits beside me, stares at Selena for awhile before continuing her sentence. "What do you know about that girl?"

"Not everything, but much enough to say that I know her better than you do," I wish I can really smash her real hard, I wish I can just kill her right this moment. But I can't.

"And what makes you so sure about that?" She chuckles.

I'm about to open my mouth but then I refuse. I just- I don't know. I don't know what to say.

She smiles teasingly at me and shooks her head, laughing a bit. "You don't know, do you?"

"Don't know what?"

She laughs again for awhile before saying,"and you said you know her better than I do." Okay what the hell is going on?

I wait for her to continue her sentence, not saying anything. She hasn't said anything yet, but my mind is blown already. I don't even know why why hands are sweating; why I'm nervous. There's nothing to worry about, isn't it?

After what seems to me like years she finally opens her mouth and spills those words. "Do you know why she dates Justin?"

"Because she lo-"

"No- Don't even start with that word. It's not even close. She dates him because her production company asks her to, Logan. Why should she do that? To make her famous. To make her earn more money.

"I suppose you see her having no problem with the scandal. Of course, it's because this is all she wants. Sure, she will get more hate, but the hate is nothing compared to the love and money she gets.

"What about Justin then? He was like you. Mistaken by her beauty and the so-called-innocence," she pauses for awhile. "She is a good actress I must say."

What? No, no. That's not possible. "I don't believe you," I murmur. It can't be true. Alex is lying. She just wants me to get away from Selena. This is all bullshit.

"Believe what you want, Logan," she says as she stands up, "but it's the truth."

She keeps looking into me, trying to convince me. I don't know why she thinks that looking at people will convince them, but I know the look that she gives when she tries to do that, and this is it. But no, Alex, no. I shook my head and laugh a little as I break the eye contact.

"I know you won't believe me," she says. This is the only thing that I can agree to. "That's why I've prepared you this," she hands me a piece of paper, folded into half. I take the paper and open it to see a phone number.

"It's Justin's," Alex tells me, "go ask him and prove it yourself," she says before she walks away and leaves me alone with Justin's number; and confusion. I stare at the paper, then to Selena, who, is still playing the role as Hannah, then back to the paper again.

God. What the hell is going on?