Without You

Chapter 17

Sam's Pov ⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️

I smiled at Colby when he said that to me. I really want to be with him forever even if we fight. He means everything to me, but what if what I saw in the little world my head created was true. What'll happen then? Colby kissed my neck and I quickly pushed him off me. He tumbled backwards, but he just stood at the end of the bed looking at me.

"Sam I'm sorry I didn't mean too," he said.

I felt bad but I got up and pushed back him and slammed my door and locked it. I don't know what go into me but I just didn't feel right. Everything I remember that happened while I was in a coma was coming back.

*Inside Sam's Brain*

D: Doubt

D: He doesn't love you Samuel. He's in love with Elton and you're falling for his pathetic games.

S: Shut up! You're wrong! He loves me!

I didn't realize I was yelling because I heard a knock on the door. It was Elton.

"Sam are you okay?" He asked.

"I'm fine," I replied with.

D: See Colby didn't even come to make sure you're okay. He doesn't care about you Sam. Just wait and see. All he wants to do is sleep with you and then throw you out like you're nothing.

I turned music on loud enough so no one heard me fighting with myself.

S: YOU'RE WRONG HE LOVES ME AND NO ONE ELSE!

D: Why are you so sure of that?

The voice inside my head was right. What if he doesn't love me? He didn't come see what's wrong... Does he just want to sleep with me and then throw me out? I'm starting to believe the voice in my head...

S: What should I do?

D: Kill yourself because no one will miss you. You've already almost died and he didn't care enough to visit you a lot. What would he have done if you did die?

I listened to the voice. I turned off the music and walked into the bathroom then locked the door. He was right this was the only thing left for me to do because no one actually cared if I was alive. I turned the tub on and grabbed a razor and broke it apart so I had the blade. I cut horizontally on my arm going deeper and deeper as I went along. Everything started going black and the last thing I saw before I passed out was Colby.

Colby's Pov

I left Sam alone after he ran out so he could have his space. Elton asked him what was wrong and Sam just told him he was fine when I knew he wasn't, but all of a sudden the music stopped and he locked the bathroom door. I was worried but I didn't know why. Something in me just knew something was wrong with Sam. I heard the water running and I got a weird feeling in my stomach. I started banging on the door yelling at him to unlock it, but he didn't hear me so I ran into the door as hard as I could and the lock broke. I saw blood dripping from his wrists and I knew it was bad. I started yelling Elton's name and whoever else's.

"SAM! STAY WITH ME PLEASE! SAM!" I was screaming now.

Aaron was the first on there and he ran in and back out really quickly I'm assuming he called and ambulance. He came back in with Corey behind him. Aaron held me back while Corey grabbed Sam out of the tub and onto the hallway floor trying to stop the blood. The ambulance arrived and quickly started working on getting Sam back to being conscious again. Aaron didn't let go of me and Elton was just standing there jaw dropped to the floor. He looked at me with this really sad/guilty look on his face. The paramedics brought Sam to down the stairs and rushed him to the hospital. Aaron didn't let go of me because I was clung onto him crying into him. Corey and Devyn came over to comfort me, but Elton just stood there for a second then he turned and ran down the stairs. The door slammed.

Elton's Pov

After what I just saw happen and how Colby looked at me I lost it. I felt bad for not being there right away and not being able to comfort him, but I felt like it was my fault that he did this. I looked at Colby then ran down the stairs and out the door. I got into my car and started to drive away from the house. My only thought was to get as far away from there as possible and not turn back till I knew it was right. I felt like a jerk for not telling them the truth. It's my fault though I know this for a fact. Sam almost died because I didn't listen to what my head was telling me to do. I drove until I couldn't drive no more. I got out of my car and started walking into the woods I was by, but soon enough I couldn't hold it in and I dropped to the ground crying.

A/N
Sorry I didn't post for awhile been busy with my drawings I had to finish and with work. Please forgive me. I'm sorry this chapter is sad.