Missing him was... || Jesper "Zven" Svenningsen

Chapter 10: Shocking clarifications

And then we stood there. There was silence between us. I didn't exactly know if he or I stopped to walk first, but now we stood beside each other. His glance rested on my small figure. Tears, I refused to let fall, burned in my eyes and I didn't even dare to look at him. After he revealed his knowledge of Jesper and me, none of us said a word. He probably expected any emotion of me, losing my temper and denying everything or bursting out in tears and admitting everything, but I did none of these things. The tears I feel aren't worth falling, I told myself. It would just be another sign of weakness and this was certainly the last thing I want.

First, I had been angry even though I didn't know why. Was I angry because he found out? Or was it because I slowly began to trust him just to experience the feeling of getting your trust broken again?

But my anger disappeared as fast as it came, replaced with the feeling of sadness. The feeling of loneliness spread through my body, I felt so broken and meaningless.

"Look, whatever you're thinking right now, I just want to make clear that I never had any bad intentions. I just want to know the truth." Luka clarified and broke the silence.

"Sure and you think the best way to do it, is to abuse my trust?" I answered flatly. "You really think I'll still believe a thing you say? That you weren't just friendly to me for your own advantage?" It sounded so ridiculous to me, I almost laughed.

"God damn May, do you really think you would've talked with me at all if I didn't interact with you first? You're so withdrawn, I have the feeling that not even the persons you live with know who exactly who you are.

Look, I talked with Glenn and he told me the same." He defended himself. "It's like I know you but on the other hand I don't know you at all."

My face darkened and I laughed at his attempt to explain his intentions implacably. "So Glenn is involved in this too? Great, just great." I ironically smiled at myself. "I don't even want to listen to your bullshit further. Our conversation is done, you better don't contact me or speak to me anymore." With these words, I walked away rapidly and didn't turn around once. He didn't even try to follow me.

Back in Origen's house

I pretty much stormed into the house and slammed with my foot the door loudly. I didn't even bother to do it quietly after I left Luka in the park behind, I wasn't able to unleash my anger and now I just vent my emotions which have built inside of me.

Then I saw Glenn lurking around the entrance of the Gaming room who probably at least caught a glimpse of my furious gesture.

"Is everything alright?" He asked cautiously.

I scoffed at him and my voice trembled dangerously. "Depends on if you think taking advantage of people's trust is alright."

Before the situation went out of control, I directly made my way to the gaming room and started the league client.

As I stepped in, the inquiring glances I received from the others didn't escape from my view, but thankfully nobody dared to ask what has been going on in the corridor.

Then Glenn came in and sat down next to me. We both avoided to look in each other faces and prepared for scrims.

During scrims the tense atmosphere between Glenn and me didn't disappear and clearly impacted our gameplay. Our communication wasn't working at all and we almost always lost our lane because our communication was malfunctioning.

After scrims we evaluated our performance of today and obviously, we both got criticized from our team mates and staff. Especially our coach got truly mad at us and began to rant.