Best Friends : It's Complicated

Chapter 26 - Confusion

Delilah's POV: 

I didn't know what to feel. I knew Josiah liked me but I never thought he LOVED me. A couple months ago I would have been so unbelievably happy to hear this. But now I'm just completely and utterly confused. When did this happen? How? I just don't understand at all. I had to get away from him so that I could clear my head and think. I could never think clearly when he was around.  

I can't do this. I'm finally with a guy that treats me right and I can't just throw that all away, right? I could never hurt Logan like that. What would he think if he knew what happened just now? What if he found out behind my back? Should I tell him? I know that the guilt will completely suffocate me. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I had to tell him. I'm sure if I just explained to him that I only cared about him and he had nothing to worry about we would be able to work this whole thing out. 

That's just what I planned to do as I texted him:

"Hey we need to talk. Can I come over?"- Delilah

He replied quickly with:

"Yeah, sure. Is everything okay?"- Logan.

"I'll tell you when I get there."- Delilah.

I took a deep breath before knocking on his door, mentally preparing myself for the worst. Logan opened the door instantly, as if he had just been waiting for me to get there. 

"Hey Delilah! What's up? You kind of had me worried over the phone," he said with concern laced through his voice. 

"I have something to tell you."

"Okay, well what is it? I'm all ears," he said as he smiled in a slight atttempt to try and lighten the mood.

I sat on his couch in his living room and motioned for him to sit beside me. His eyebrows scruched together as he sat down and took my hand in his. 

"You can tell me, Delilah. It's okay," he said in a reassuring tone, while rubbing my hand with his thumb. 

His words and actions made me feel even worse about what I had done. I didn't deserve his kindness, not after I had let Josiah kiss me. 

"Just promise me that you'll hear me out and that you won't be mad, okay?" I asked with caution.

"Delilah, you're really scaring me here. What's wrong?"

"Okay so, I was hanging out with Josiah," At the mention of Josiah's name I could see Logan visibly stiffen. "And well he basically told me that he had feelings for me and he kissed me," I rushed out feeling completly ashamed of myself. I didn't even want to look at him but I knew that I had to face him.

I slowly rose my head up to meet his eyes. I instantly regretted that decision. His face showed no emotion at first but as my words hit him his eyes held a mixture of hurt, betrayal, and anger. 

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen."

Logan stood up quickly and backed away from me.

"So you're.....you're leaving me for him is that it? That's what you needed to tell me. You're just going to leave like that?" he said with such pain that his voice cracked a bit.

I got up to face him. I gently cupped his face in my hands. His eyes were filled to the brim with tears, just seeing him like that broke my heart, and knowing that I caused that made it even worse. 

"I'm not going anywhere, Logan. I wouldn't even dream about leaving. Josiah is just a friend to me and I'm putting distance between us."

Logan's expression changed from hurt to anger in an instant. He roughly pushed my hands away from his face and stepped away from me.

"Don't come to me with that! You know you have feelings for him, stop lying to me! You always end up going back to him, no matter what. Don't come to me with that crap saying that you're just friends. We both know that you two have something going on, its always been like that!" he yelled.

 I cowered away from him, he had never yelled at me like that before. He had never yelled, period. I had no idea how to react to this side of him.

"Logan, what are you talking about?" I asked cautiously.

"Everything was going perfect! I thought this could actually work, but you went and ruined it all! Why can't you stop going back to him and forget about him? God, I tried so hard to make this work and now we are back to square one!"

"I don't understand what you're saying. I'm not going back to him, I'm staying with you," I attempted to reassure him.

"Why him, huh? Why was I never good enough for you? You were always with him and you never gave me a chance," he continued ranting as if I hadn't said a word. "You never cared for me this was all just some kind of sick joke, wasn't it? How could you do this to me? You just wanted to mess with me. I hate it when people mess with me. I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!"

He turned around and knocked over everything that was on the table closest to him. At this point I was completely afraid and confused. I had no idea why Logan was acting like this. 

"Logan calm down!" 

My words seemed to anger him because he came marching over to me. He roughly grabbed my hands and pulled me closer to him. His face was only inches apart from mine. Usually I'd be okay with being this close, but now I just wanted him to get away from me. 

"Don't ever tell me to calm down," he whispered with venom behind his voice.

 "Logan, please," I said in a mere whimper. I'm not sure what I was pleading him to do though, I just felt the need to run now.

"I watched you for so long and you never noticed me. I loved you but you were always with him. And I finally had you and again you go running back to Josiah."

"What do you mean you watched me?"

"We went to school together and you never even noticed me. I'd always see you and I wanted you to be mine. I knew we were meant to be, I could feel it. The only thing in the way was Josiah. He kept you away from me. So I waited, I waited for an opportunity to take you away from him. It took a while, I'll admit. I even considered taking matters into my own hands, but finally I noticed that you two had drifted apart and that's when I took action. When I saw you go into the movie theatre alone I went in to join you. But who just had to be there? Josiah. I didn't let that stop me, so I went in and sat next to you. I felt that connection all over again and I knew that you could feel it too. You had to have felt it too. Things were finally good, and now this. Now Josiah is trying to steal you away from me. But I won't let that happen again. Never again. We'll be together forever just like we're supposed to be, and no one will ever try to steal you from me ever again." 

To say I was shocked would be an understatement. How could I have known this? I thought he was a sweet guy, but that was just a mask that he used to hide who he really was. But now he was showing his true colors. 

"Please Logan let me go," I pleaded.

"No I won't make that mistake again. I'll make sure that you will stay with me forever," he said as he gripped my wrist tightly in his hands.

I tried to wrigggle myself free but he was too strong. I was trapped. 

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A/N: So that happened. Hope no one expected that. What did you guys think? You like? I honestly never expected this to happen but I decided last minute to twist up the story and try to make it more interesting. It took me like three days to actually finish this so sorry. I had terrible writer's block for a while. 

Dedication goes to @JeanieBeani. She helped give me a few ideas of what to do this chapter. So thank you!

Anyways enough of that, please vote and comment! <3