I don't know how to help you
I don't know why you randomly choose to be sad
Why your stuck in your head
This is not a video game
I'm not gonna save you over and over again
Sometimes I'll have to leave you there in the castle
I'll still hear your screams but I'll mute them physically
And that's scary
To know you have full control of me
I watch as
You engrave your past into your hands with a knife
When shaking hands, U making everyone you meet know your just that broken
I've watched this happens a thousand times
I wish u were never born
There's no mirrors in the womb
See
I wouldn't have to watch as your eyes tear undone until everything you are is nothing but a pile of bones
I wouldn't have to watch u skip meals, sneak dinner in your clothes, drink water until you drown your insides just like you drown mine
I would have to watch you sit in your room afraid to go out
Afraid to talk
Afraid to leave your house
Afraid that if you get close to someone they will leave
I know you
I know you think your disgusting
I know you think your worthless
I know that every night you pay to be straight
How you pray to just be skinny
I know you
Inside your soft
Inside your mind is full of complex thoughts and ideas running and coursing through your veins, your finger tips
Most importantly
I know you wanna have a voice
I know your still searching for purpose
And maybe your purpose is providing it for people just like you
How you want a arena of people who find the purpose in your words
I write a lot
It's therapeutical
I haven't written an autobiography but I just might one day
Seems quick easy
