Is This Really Me? (Kuroko No Basket)

Chapter 8

I adjusted my bag on my shoulder. Class had been over for about 20 minutes. As I suspected, the ball invitations didn't stop. I got about three notes during class, 4 groups of girls came up asking if I'd go with all of them, and 6 girls have asked me face to face since class ended. I sighed in frustration as the last girl walked off. She wasn't upset. She seemed more relieved, like she didn't want to ask in the first place. I felt a tap on my shoulder and I rolled my eyes. 

I turned around, a smile on my face, "I'm sorry but I won't be attending the ball. I hate to disappoint such a lovely-" I stopped short, realizing who I was talking to. Before me wasn't any lovely girl. Kuroko was in front of me, Midorima standing behind him. I didn't give Midorima a second glance as I turned my attention to Kuroko, "Sorry Kuroko. I thought you were another girl asking me to the ball. What's up?" I asked him casually. 

"I was wondering if you wanted to come to the diner with me for something to eat." 

I smiled a bit sadly, "I wish I could Kuroko but I already have plans. You know my Mondays are full. Besides, I don't want to be anywhere near or around him right now." I explained, flicking my head towards Midorima, though my eyes stayed on Kuroko. 

Kuroko looked to Midorima, who still didn't say anything and Kuroko nodded, "That's fine. I'll see you tomorrow." 

I nodded and started walking off the school grounds. I had just gotten out the school wall when I heard a voice, "Kana." The voice caused me to flinch. 

I glanced over my shoulder, "Do I know you?" I said dryly. Midorima pushed up his glasses, clearly irritated by my tone. 

"We need to talk." He stepped towards me and I stepped away from him. "Please. I just wanna talk." 

I turned and started walking, "I have somewhere I need to be." 

Midorima kept stride beside me, "Then I'll walk with you." 

"Don't you have practice?" 

He shakes his head slightly, "The coach will understand." I just tightened my grip on my bag. "I'm sorry." I tried not to stop in my tracks. This time, his apology was sincere. And you can't fake sincere-ness that well. "I shouldn't have blamed you. I was just looking for an escape. I didn't want to be blamed and Kagami had left so there was no one else to go after. It was wrong of me." I stayed silent, unable to form words. 

My mind was blank but it was like my heart was screaming at me. It was telling me to go for it. Forgive him. All my heart wanted was for him to be back in my life but I couldn't. I can't forgive him. 

"Midorima... you did a lot of damage to me. To basically tell me that you don't care about me. You don't seem to realize exactly how that made me feel. Words cannot describe how I feel towards you about the entire situation." I let out a breath, getting angrier just by talking about it. 

"I know. I can't make up for everything I said and did. But I really wish you'd give me another chance. I really want to be with you." By now we were at the bus stop and boarded the right bus. 

Midorima sat beside me as I leaned my head back, "I want to forgive you. I can't though." I just shook my head and turned to look away from him as the ride grew silent. 

Midorima reached a hand and gently touched my arm, causing me to flinch hard in response. He pulled his hand back and I relaxed once again. The bus ride seemed to take longer than it usually needed to but I tried not to let the silence get to me. The bus stopped, jolting me forward slightly, as usual, and I stood from my seat. I exited the bus, Midorima square on my heels as I crossed the street. I was no more than two minutes from Aomine's school but Midorima seemed reluctant to leave me.