Is This Really Me? (Kuroko No Basket)

Chapter 7

I basically spent the rest of the day dreading school tomorrow. I sat on my couch, reading some magazines that lay on the small table in front of my couch. Now it was around 4:42 pm, according to the clock that hung on my wall. My phone began buzzing, playing the stereotypical ringtone as I picked it up. The caller ID read "Midorima" and I mentally groaned. 

I answered it and spoke, "I'm sorry. The person you are calling wants nothing to do with you. Don't ever call back." 

"Wait." was all he said. He caught me as I pulled the phone from my ear, about to hang up. "Just hear me out." he said and his voice was low and tired. 

"Why should I?" I asked defensively. 

"I know you're probably still really upset with me, but I need you to listen to me." There was a pause and I stayed silent while he continued talking. "I didn't mean for the other day to end the way it did. I shouldn't have tried to push you. I'm sorry." The apology sounded somewhat sincere but I was still skeptical of the situation. "I spent the past few nights thinking of how to make it up to you." 

I cut him off right there, "You can't. You kept telling me how strongly you felt for me. How much you wanted to be with me, but that wasn't true. None of that was ever true. You just wanted someone to call yours and didn't care about me. How I felt or what I wanted didn't matter to you. I just happened to be the girl who was stupid enough to fall for you and think you actually cared." I paused, tears welling in my eyes as I tried not to sob into the phone. 

He took that pause and used it as opportunity, "But it was true. Everything I felt, everything I still feel, everything I said I meant. I'm sorry I was so selfish. I really do care about you. Kana. I lo-" he stopped himself. 

"Looks like I'm not the only one that hates certain words." I commented, somewhat rudely. 

"Excuse me?" he asked. 

"I don't want to be called someone's girlfriend just like you can't say you love me. I'm not sure if I love you Midorima and I don't think you love me either. I'd rather you not say it until you really mean it, if you ever mean it. You'll find me when you're ready to be honest with me and yourself." 

I hung up the phone with a sigh and sat my phone down on the table with my bag. I got up and went to my room, closing the curtains of the window and lying down on my bed. It had only seemed like minutes but I fell asleep later.

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Knock knock. Someone was at my door but I really didn't want to move. Ding dong. The doorbell was rung. I turned over, pulling the cover over my head, remaining in complete darkness. Ding dong. Ding dong. I groaned as I heard the sounds of the doorbell. I stood up and left my room, heading down the hall. I passed the mirror in the hall, only glancing at my reflection as I continued walking. My hair was tussled and sticking out in spots, my bangs hung in my face though they were scattered as well. My oversized tee shirt hung partially off of my right shoulder and I had to pull my sweat pants back up on my waist. If you didn't know me, and just looked at me, I'd resemble a 13 year old boy who'd just been awoken from his sleep. 

I opened the door, sleepily rubbing my eye with my free hand, "Hello...?" I said, letting out a soft yawn. 

I looked up at the person before me to see Kagami with his backpack on one shoulder and his school uniform on. When he looked at me, his cheeks turned red and his eyes darted away from me. He was looking around and everywhere else, except for at me. 

"U-u-um... S-school is starting i-in about 15 minutes..." he stuttered out, trailing off a bit at the end. My eyes widened as I looked at the clock on the wall. I must have slept through my alarm. "I had called to see if you wanted to walk together, but you didn't answer."