DETERMINATION | Book One

C H A P T E R 7

C H A P T E R
S E V E N

Both his parents sat there stuck and lost for words as they listened to their son spill the secrets of things he went through as a child. "Why didn't you ever say anything? You know your mother and I would've handled it son." His father mumbled as he rubbed Ahmad's back.

"I-I was I was scared, embarrassed .. and I honestly didn't know how to tell you guys,"

His mama wiped her tears, "Scared of what baby? We always told you guys no matter the situation you could come to us and we'd be there by your side through it all.."

"I didn't think y'all would believe me, Aunt Shondra was loved deeply in our family, everyone respected her and cherished her, she was looked upon as the angel in the family and I knew if I spoke up about it, that it would've cause division, people would've took her side not believing me and others would've took mine not believing her, it was gonna be a big ole' mess so I handled it on my own and just fought back as much as I could." He mumbled.

"When did the molesting start? Tell us from the very beginning .. so we can handle this when we address the situation .. our anual family reuion is coming up in a few weeks and we need to know everything ..because she keeps all the kids in the family and who knows if she still does this.." His mama spoke up, thinking about all the times other family members dropped their kids off with her.

"Remember the day daddy lost his job at the construction company and you guys both went out to look for jobs together.."

"Yeah and we called Shondra to watch you guys because Amir was sick and y'all couldn't come with us." His mama continued remembering it all.

"Yeah, well that day Amir was sleep for a nap and it was just me up playing with the toys y'all had brought us and watching cartoons .. she was sitting on the couch reading then she suggested we play a game .. me being a kid was down for it but little did I know that that game involved us doing inappropriate stuff. Shit like the things that I saw them do on the late night shows HBO used to play that I used to stay up and watch even when I knew I was suppose to be sleep in bed.. but at the time I wasn't sure what was going on but my body reacted in ways I wasn't used too .. the older I got and the more thins I got exposed too about sex, I realised what had been going on, but by then it was little too late .. we stopped going to her so I wasn't going through it anymore..

"But I do remember the time when I realized what was going on, I felt sick to my stomach and always wondered like why would you want to do those type of things to a kid, and not just a kid but your own nephew. It never made sense to me, but even then I always knew after we always played that fucking game I never felt good about myself, it was like deep down I knew it wasn't right especially since she didn't want me to tell anybody about the game we played.."

"I was never excited to play the game but she was, soon as you and pops or Amir were out of sight .. it was game on."

"Did she ever touch Amir too?"

He shrugged, "I don't know if she did, but if so he never spoke on it, like I did."

"So Amir knows about this?"

He nodded, "He was the first person I told after it happened, he didn't believe me at first until one day he saw her in action .. but he made me not say anything, I forgot what his reason was to not do it but at the time it felt like the smart thing to do so we both just kept it a secret."