Figuring It Out

Chapter 19

After some debating, I decide to throw on some cropped yoga pant leggings from Pink, a plain gray t-shirt from TopShop and a plaid from Hollister over that. I grab my black converse and slide them on my feet, and go into the bathroom.

I grab my curling wand and curl my hair, then put my leather braided headband over that. I just throw on some mascara and put on some Chapstick. I do a once over in the mirror, then check the time on my phone.

4:30

I leave my room and head downstairs. It's become notably quieter, and I see that Eleanor and Louis left. Ashton appears to be texting someone, and Liam is scrolling through something on his laptop. Niall and Michael still aren't back, which was kinda expected.

"Hey Li." I say as I sit next to him.

"Hey dork. Well don't you look adorable." He says while looking at me, drawing attention away from Twitter.

"I really do hope you realize that I'm not four."

Liam laughs and shoots back an insult.

"You actually happen to be short enough to look four so it's not that big of a deal Bri Bri boo."

I roll my eyes at the nickname he obviously came up with on the spot. I glance over at Ashton, who's watching Liam and I argue with an amused expression on his face. I stick my tongue out at him and he laughs, and returns the favor.

I turn my attention back to Liam, finally happy with a good insult.

"At least I don't look like a phedophile with all that gross facial hair ya got there."

He rubs his hand over his beard and pouts.

"It's not that bad, right?"

"Tumblr and twitter say differently."

I reply, pulling out my phone and opening up Twitter.

"It kinda is."

I show him the tweets I get from one direction fans, that ask me if I can convince the lads to get proper haircuts and to shave.

"Oh. Well that's not cool."

"At least you don't get stuff saying your a whore for hanging with Niall and Ashton on the same day."

Ash's head pops up when I say his name.

"They can't be that harsh." Liam cautiously speaks out.

Ashton laughs at that.

"I've gotten tweeted , "@Ashton5SOS Everyone hates you! You are so worthless and I hope you kill yourself so no one has to suffer by looking at your face." Sadly this is an actual tweet sent to Ashton

I look at Liam and his jaw is dropped.

"Yeah Liam I've gotten a lot of bullshit too. One person sent me a DM saying that I should "kill myself because I'm a worthless little bitch that lives off my brothers fame and no one could ever love me." The same person also told me that you and the rest of the guys, including the 5sause group, hate me and they all wish I'd cut to my vein and die. Some fans you have." I finish, tearing up slightly.

Liam pulls me into a hug, rubbing gentle circles into my back.

"Bri I didn't know. The fact that they pick on my little sister for no apparent reason is terrible."

"They don't even bother Ruthie and Nicola that much." I say, referencing to our two older sisters.

I feel him sigh deeply, and he sits up pulling his laptop onto his lap again.

"I feel like doing something about this."

Ashton comes over and sits next to me, nodding along with Liam's idea.

"Sounds like a good plan, mate."

I rub my hand over the pile of bracelets I constantly wear, hiding the cuts and scars from everyone. It's not gonna help. It always comes back. They are never going to give up.

I feel my phone vibrate against my thigh, I signaling that I have a text.

Michael the Bomb Fizzle:

In the lobby :)

Bri Bri Bear:

Alright!! be down in a sec just gotta say peace to leeeyum.

Michael the Bomb Fizzle:

Sounds good see ya soon Xx

I stand up, causing Liam and Ashton to pull their attention away from Liam's twitter.

"I have a date I have to get to."

I announce.

Ashton rolls his eyes, as Liam calls out "Use protection!" as I close the door to his flat. Dork.