BLOODY DESIRES-(Yandere )

Mother Dear

Levi pov:

Rebecca was gone she had been missing for a while , although I knew where she would be, I kept away ...hanji was naive and wouldn't have known about her, I knew Rebecca would soon find out about her past , that would be the only way for me to keep her...It was no use for me to keep her locked up away from people , she would soon come running back to me her only protector.

I drew a sip from my glass, the room was moving around me , slightly intoxicated I reached for the bottle , my fingers  flinched and the bottle fell and shattered into shards of crystal glass, I fell to the floor and Began to try and recover the wasted alchahol ,blood began to fuse with it , i couldn't feel the pain ,all I could see was red , I lifted my hands from the mess ,  shards of glass had pierced my flesh and blood was pouring from the open wounds , the familiar feelings brought back fond memories of childhood dreams, the confusion , the pain , the love...watching mother  brush her  hair in front of the mirror ruby red lips , her face showed a smile but her eyes were filled with sadness , her long raven locks covered  all the bruses inflicted upon her snow white complexion, she reached for me and sat me on her lap , her face was  gaunt and she ran her bony fingers through my hair...

I snapped back to reality ,  memories of our past ...
I missed them, before Eren appeared.
Suddenly the pain came flooding back , a burning sensation came over me from the alchahol seeping into my wounds, I winced with pain.
I quickly wrapped my wounded hands up with bandages.
Without thinking I started stumbling  towards the staircase that lead to Rebbaca's room...
Her bed was neatly made and her night gown was still where she had left it  last.
I lifted it to my face and took in its scent, it smelt of mothballs and old sheets , it was old fashioned but the intricate sewing design never did wither away with age.

Mother had good taste...mother loved us both but she generously gave this to Rebecca , she cared for her like she was her own daughter and always made sure that she looked her best dressing her in frilly dresses with lavish designs ,Rebbacca's father demanded she always look presentable, and the same went for mother and I , mother always had large white pearls draped around her neck and she always wore this white gown to bed ...
She thought we didn't know about his abuse , the way he treated her , the way he hurt her , she always hid behind a smile, she was trapped in a toxic marriage one that she would never get out of alive.
She married for money  and not love, she was tired of life always dragging her down , she barely made enough money for us to live.
Then he found her in the heart of grief struken poverty, she had a little boy by her side but he didn't seem to mind since he had a precious baby girl recently new to this world...
He was captivated by her beauty and she was captivated by his wealth , they wedded almost immediately, the first few years he treated her like a queen , showering her with gifts and opulent living , until he discovered she was a barren woman with nothing more to offer ... he started staying away only coming home late at night drunk and shouting curse words to the sky , she knew he was with other woman , she knew what he had done but she didn't bother, she couldn't risk the life she had built up for herself.

Rebbacca and I knew about her grief , but tried to escape , we played in the woods together and in the fields of gold during the winter, we were the same , she didn't know her mother and I never knew my father, I grew fonder of her over the years and I knew she would be mine in the years to come.

The year my mother fell ill  it all changed , Rebecca's father became more malicious towards both Rebecca and me, I tried to protect her from the suffering , and it showed on the bruses and cuts on my body ...the sacrifices I made for her sake.
He Became kinder towards my mother ,her final suffering somewhat made him feel sympathy for her...he said as soon as my mother died in in her early 30s her spirit went into Rebbacca , I couldn't tell at the youthful age of 10 but I could see it in the way Her father started acting towards her, the mixture of fear and guilt in his eyes, he started going crazy...

My trial of deep thought broke and realized that now I was the one going crazy, I had left my sanity behind for love...
Rebecca was the only one that could bridge the gap between my dreams and reality...
I longed for her touch and affection.

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Honestly I feel like this is the deepest chapter of them all but I really enjoyed typing it , since I spent the weekend where there's no WiFi at all I had so much inspiration! Moving on to the next chapter immediately... I have a feeling that this fanfic will be going on for 10 more chapters...it's really deep and I'm trying to make sure that every chapter is explained In the latest chapters ...this pretty much sums up the second chapter "silk and dresses" but It gets a bit deeper than anticipated...also Levis mom was born in 1900 and died in 1930 , he was 10 when she died...
The story is set in the 1950s so ...